Ummmm... excuse me- Id like to turn in my all day pass for the high times peaks and scary valleys emotional roller coaster and the been there done that merry go round for some other rides at the momemtarily not-so-magic kingdom?? Anybody wanna trade tickets? I have some folks who could really use me at my best efforts- and let me just say- this aint it! And before you have a panic moment or go into wonderland mode, no one did me wrong and there is not anything specific you can do to make it better except for what most of you do really well already. (Thanks for that if I havent told you lately- I love you so very much!) Its just THAT kind of day- you know the kind- ONE of THOSE days, fewer and farther between now thankfully after almost 2 yrs- but now when they hit- they hit harder- probably because I forget to be quite as prepared for them. (not even a whole day- just parts that seem to last longer than they actualy do- sort of like the 15 seconds of a really bad earthquake that seems to last hours to actually get thru- when you watch stuff shaking off the walls and falling from the ceiling- but you know that if you just stand still in safe place you should be ok when it passes! I WILL BE ALRIGHT I KNOW! (Cause He Told me so!) So please dont go trying to FIX it. I AM SIMPLY MISSING KEVIN DALE- I miss coming home and sharing the good stuff that happened for us, our family and friends, and even the crappy stuff. Having him smile and hug me and tell me how good God is, how much he loved me and knowing it was true by looking into his eyes. No doubts whatseover. I miss him coming in the door somewhere between 5:12 and 5:15 yelling out Sweetie Im home with his lips puckered and his arms outstretched all the way thru the house til he found me in the kitchen or the office (literally- no joke- it was always the BEST part of my day). I will readily admit to craving that sight- althewhile knowing its not going to happen. And yes- I actively curse that front door at times. But I also know that there are LOTS OF WOMEN AND MEN IN THIS SITUATION.. single again- not by choice- after a loving spouse has gone on ahead to heaven. I also know that there are some people who have never had it so good- never had someone so wonderful to share this ride with- not even for a day. So I know I need to be thankful and grateful for the time we had together here and even for my time alone now, because I can look back and smile, laugh or cry remembering the ride when you sat or walked by my side. You were just such a sweet part of the view. No matter where I looked. So for now- Illl just have to wave and wink at you from here. Knowing that you are smiling at me and #BlowingMeKissesFromHeaven. OK enough of that. Its time to go love on some babies at FBC. Just what the doctor orderd!
Posted on: Wed, 02 Apr 2014 22:45:24 +0000
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