Unplanned Pregnancy – Women’s Stories Juanita’s Story My little family was perfect. I had a loving and successful husband, an adorable 2 year old daughter and a very content little 6 month old son. We were in a stable financial situation and my world was about as perfect as I could’ve ever wanted it to be. I always only ever wanted two children. Prior to having children I had had a very successful marketing career, and whilst I love being a Mummy, I was also looking forward to returning to work, and enjoying a little independence and identity of my own again. I have always been a very organised person, some would say a perfectionist, and my life was running exactly the way I wanted it. Until I realised I was pregnant again. I was still breastfeeding my son, and also taking the mini-pill, but the day I opened a can of dog food and felt a wave of familiar nausea that I knew to be ‘morning sickness’ it felt like my world fell apart. I did a home pregnancy test the next day and it came up positive immediately. I cried on and off all day. I can remember holding my son really close and crying into his warm little shoulder, ‘But I just don’t want to be pregnant again.’ I told my husband and he was surprised but ecstatic. He was totally baffled at how horrified I was. And so started weeks of the two of us really trying to come to grips with how the other one felt. It was a very painful time, full of tears and depression on my part, and confusion on his. I begged him to consider letting me terminate the pregnancy. He said he wouldn’t stop me, but that he would be devastated if I did. I did make an appointment at the termination clinic, but I ended up cancelling it. I guess I was frightened of the impact that choice may have on us as a couple. I also felt guilty at secretly hoping that I would maybe have a miscarriage and the problem would just go away. I am not sure when the turning point came. I have only just got round to telling everyone I am pregnant. I am still scared and worried I won’t be able to cope. But the depression over the pregnancy has lifted, thank goodness. I am now well over half way, and I think I am beginning to look forward to meeting our unexpected little baby.
Posted on: Mon, 02 Sep 2013 10:00:00 +0000
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