Until today I finally have my medication to slow down myself and not ask why I not good enough. Medication have helped me but I want to know how many layer of onion skin I need to peel off until I completely heal . Each layer have pain enough . I now everyday except spend an hour in bed in the morning to fright for get up . Then fright to leave the house . Fright to be good girl to have medi . Fright to fall sleep . I fright to just forget all that trauma . Is seem have nothing can do. But the flashback is hard work enough for me to lost a bag of blood everyday and the pain that I suffer can spend me half of my body of energy . Panic attack and Depression come from flashback . Flashback come from stress and anxiety . Stress and anxiety came from complex trauma . Complex trauma came from no reason .trauma ??? Why is seem never get over. .
Posted on: Mon, 28 Oct 2013 12:26:33 +0000