Update, Sunday Nov 3rd: I sat down late last night, and read, from the beginning, all the posts and each and every response from all of you. It brought freshly to mind all of the pain and sadness, and then the true joy at seeing what God has done. Tom has been in this battle almost 6 months....feels in a lot of ways more like six years. I remembered the first words from the doctor on the day Tom had his endoscopy, the look on the doctors face as he came around the corner. I remembered the almost surreal calmness of my husbands body as the words came out of the doctors mouth, Im 99% sure this is cancer, and its big and its bad...I remember the room spinning beneath me, around me, with me. How, why??? And then the battle began...and now, almost six months later, the battle still being fought, we know with out a doubt a doubt that our Redeemer lives. So many tears, and each one held by our Father in Heaven. So many prayers, and each one heard by our Loving God. We are facing each day as it comes, not really knowing what the future holds, except to say that it doesnt really matter. I say that because I no that no matter what, we will get through it, with the prayers and support of each of you. Tom is learning to adjust to a lot of life changes. Some are easier than others. But each one brings its own challenges. He has good days, and bad days. But he is making progress for sure. The future for his employment is uncertain, as we just dont know exactly the full extent that this disease has robbed from him. But we are reminded that God knew this too, and that God has a plan and a purpose for Tom. This past week, Tom had his first, post-op appointment at the cancer center. He only saw the mid-level physician. She told Tom that she thought he may have chemo instead of radiation again, but just wasnt sure what his oncologist will want to do for sure. Toms wound from the infection continues to heal, but it is a a painstakingly slow degree. He lost more weight from the surgery and from so many days in the hospital. He must now, and for the rest of his natural life, eat every 2 hours. He still has a feeding tube, to aide in getting him enough calories and protein. He is STILL sleeping in his recliner. He has to sleep at a elevated angle because since he now has no stomach, there is nothing to keep food down except for gravity. He cant drink anything for 30 minutes before or 30 minutes after eating, because the liquid would expedite the food from his system to quickly, and then he would not gain any of the calories or nutrients he needs to at least maintain his weight. He cant lift anything over 20 pounds. He cant...he cant...he cant.....this may sound like Im being negative, but Im really not. Im not because while I say he cant there is a couple of things he CAN do...he CAN live and breathe...he CAN sing of the wonders and to the Glory of God! Everyday he is alive is TRULY a gift from God. As always, I am beyond humbled at the amount of prayers and support from all of you. Please continue to pray, as the road ahead is long and uncertain in many ways. The one certainty we all have is that we serve a Mighty God, and no matter what we feel, or think, HE IS IN CONTROL!!!
Posted on: Sun, 03 Nov 2013 22:19:23 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015