Update Tuesday (10.14.14) 10:30pm But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 Weakness is human. Admitting weaknesses is a learned trait. I have no problem letting people no when I fail. Mistakes happen in my personal and professional life all the time. Claiming those are easy. Accepting my weaknesses today was as difficult as the weakness itself. I love talking about Shelly and Rylan. I can tell a million different stories from the past 6 weeks. It makes me extremely happy to talk about them, it fills my heart. My difficulties fall when people try to find out how I am doing. I realized today through many conversations that I am doing my best to ignore my heart, my feelings. I am certain it will get easier, time will help make these feelings more controllable. Until then, I will continue to choke down the lump in my throat as it rises. Work was great. It is amazing to see how everyone has stepped up so much to help keep things running during my absence. Pridefully we always think that we are so important that our lives wont continue without us, but in reality we are just cogs in the wheel. I cannot say enough thank yous to all my co-workers. They are an amazing group of people and I am honored to serve beside them. I look forward to getting caught up to speed so I can be of better assistance then I was today. I was a bit clueless to be honest. Biggest accomplish of today was probably changing the batteries in my wireless mouse. I would start projects, then stop so I could call different people and find out more information about the project. I think my main job for the next few weeks will be talking and getting caught up. Not a bad job. Shelly did awesome today, as if there were doubts. She is so much stronger than I am. Her and Rylan went to work with me today since Shelly had PT. My dad brought them home after so Shelly could have some alone time with Rylan. She did a fantastic job loving on her while my dad was ready as the safety net. Shelly wants to be home so bad, but I have to know that she is ready first. I want her to succeed and not just be frustrated. That will take time. Rylan gave her a run for her money today. After a bottle and diaper change she still wanted to cry. Shelly did great by continuing to try new things. She is in a tough spot. She lost out on the first two weeks of Rylans life. That is a time when babies are easy and parents figure out what works. She is having to start from scratch. There is no easy now, but Shelly can handle that. She is so strong. Tomorrow we are trying something new. Shelly wants her voice to return so bad, so we are going to try acupuncture. My chiropractor mentioned it when I first visited him while we were staying at the rehab center. Shelly is excited to try it. If he can start getting the nerves to wake up then it will help her voice and in turn her ability to swallow without choking and coughing. She wants her voice back. I want her safe. Maybe we can both get what we want.
Posted on: Wed, 15 Oct 2014 02:37:06 +0000
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