Update on Mom - 4/3/14: Between my sleeping still being badly messed up and my depression, I was in all day yesterday and a lot of today. I finally got up, got in the shower, and went out to get something to eat, then went by to see Mom before making a badly needed trip to the grocery store. Plain and simple, she looks bad. Im now believing it wont be long, too. She had her eyes open most of the time I was there, and was breathing through her mouth, and it seemed like she was putting every ounce of energy she had into taking every breath. As I was leaving, a nurse came to suction her and give her medicine. I told one of the techs, who was in there earlier, that she needed her shoulders and chest somewhat upright, not just her head. I believe she will breathe a lot better like that. The depression is really bad. I wish I could fall asleep tonight (fat chance!) and not wake up. It seems that everywhere I turn, theres more sickness and death. I just read here on Facebook tonight that a friend is going to the hospital tonight, presumably for pain management for advanced cancer. From October 2011 on, Ive lost a total of five friends to cancer, one very close to me. And of course brain cancer was what started this whole thing with Mom back in September. Since I couldnt get to sleep last night, naturally I didnt get up this morning to see Dr. Castellone. Suzanne, the hospice nurse, did leave me a message on my voice mail, but I havent yet talked directly with her since Tuesday. Since the last thing she said to me was more of the same gloom and doom Ive been hearing for the last six months, Im not so sure I want to talk to her. Yesterday I had an email from somebody at the Presbyterian Home, telling me there was to be a care plan meeting for Mom, but the date confused me. She said it was to be on Wednesday, April 4. Yesterday was Wednesday, but it was April 2. Tomorrow, Friday, is April 4. I emailed back right away and asked her to clarify the date, but havent heard back from her. Ill ask tomorrow and see if I can get some concrete information. I fully expected to get a response to my email. Things are really, really bad, as far as I can tell. I am so tired of gloom and doom, sickness and death, and no light at the end of the tunnel. Thanks so much to all of you who keep going to visit Mom, and especially for all your prayers! Please keep them up! Thanks!
Posted on: Fri, 04 Apr 2014 01:59:31 +0000
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