WARNING-PERSONAL SHARE about womens stuff! Feeling relieved after getting some medical test results back this week. And with these results comes a confirmation that all a long I felt something was wrong....and I was right. Instead of trusting myself and my body I chose to emotionally and physically push myself because I shouldnt be feeling this way Lets go back to the beginning of the story. During my first pregnancy my weight sky-rocketed and I put on 40kg. Previous to that my weight went up and it went down but never that much and NEVER has it been so difficult to lose as it has since my babies. Strangely (or so it seemed at the time) I lost some weight during my second pregnancy. Then after he was born no matter how hard I tried, no matter what gruelling exercise program I put myself through...I couldnt lose weight. I felt ugly and like a failure. After trying for a few years without yielding any results I finally took myself off to the Dr/naturopath and had al the tests under the sun done for me. I found out I had a severe hormonal imbalance, an under-active thyroid, endometriosis, vit D deficiency and anaemia! No wonder I couldnt lose weight and struggled with tiredness. Within a month of receiving the proper care and treatment I began losing weight quite effortlessly. During this time I trained for an completed 4 triathlons and a few fun runs, including a 12km run in the City to surf. I had my eye on the long distance Tri and a half marathon. test results sometime after also showed my thyroid was good, I was no longer deficient in iron or vit but my hormones were still not balanced. So I continued the hormone treatment. Then something changed.................. I got tired. I became lethargic. I had no energy,a generalised low. No matter how much meditation, good eating, sleeping I wasnt coping with anything.I even put myself into therapy but after a few sessions realised it wasnt psychological and the therapy was not helping. My gut kept telling, get more tests done, something is wrong. I ignored it. Instead I kept pushing myself to train and got more and more frustrated that I couldnt and as the weight piled back on I got depressed and a sense of hopelessness settled in. Why is this happening. Desperation feels horrid. Months have gone past and I have had to cancel clients and psychic fairs,appointments, invitations and general social events because I just did not have the energy to do anything and I was embarrassed an ashamed that the weight I worked so hard to lose was back with a vengeance, all the while my negative talk was telling me I was a failure. I finally listened to my body. it was telling me something was wrong. I made an appointment, had more tests done. I got the results this week. My hormone imbalance had swung the other way! I had done so well in healing my body that the treatment I was on was now causing me to produce too much! I checked my symptoms with the list connected to this new imbalance and ticked every box! I wasnt lazy, or fat or useless. I was in fact healed but the medication I was still on no longer suited me!!!!! Hallelujah! So now I do not need the treatment and once my body balances again I am sure this weight will find its way back off my body so I can reach my goals without struggle once again. Body I am sorry for ignoring you when you were telling me something was wrong. I am sorry I put you down and put pressure on you to perform better then you were physically able to at the time. Listen to your body. It is telling the truth.
Posted on: Sun, 21 Sep 2014 02:56:32 +0000
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