WHAT DO I WANT OUT OF #LIFE? I want to be a good mom. I want to be patient, understanding, and quiet. I want to be a good listener, confidante and a constant emblem of love for my daughter. I want to be thoughtful, cautious and confident. I want to be strong, firm and flexible. I want to be worthy of every precious joyous moment I am given to mother my beautiful daughter. I want to be affectionate, compassionate and wise. I want to be encouraging, cheerful, and proud. I want to love her with all my heart and all my might, always. I want to tell her and show her every single day. Above all, I want to be good to her. What do I want out of life? I want to constantly improve myself. I don’t want to settle for anything. Not in love, not in friendships, or career. I want to rise above discouraging and unfortunate circumstances. I have lived too long a life that has been dictated by circumstances. I don’t want to dwell in misfortunes anymore. I want so much more than that. I know I deserve so much more than that. I want to show my daughter so much more than that. I want to put my heart into everything that means something to me. I want to try hard for things I really want. I want to exert myself, break out a sweat and feel challenged. I want to learn from everything and everyone around me. I want to put aside a moment in everyday to quietly reflect on my experiences. I want to find lessons in everything that I do. I want to put myself out there, return to school and work towards gaining knowledge and experiences that will advance my career opportunities. This is something worth doing and this is a good a time as any. I want to read and write every single day. I really want to delve into issues that impact my everyday life. I understand fully that knowledge is power, so I want to feel powerful. I want to increase my knowledge about issues that mean the most to me and have the greatest impact in my life: race, gender (feminism, black feminism), parenting (motherhood), identity (self, group), history of my background, and social issues (poverty, civil rights, bullying, abuse, education and immigration). I want to learn and write about my learning process. I want to be a better writer. I want to constantly improve and work on expressing myself as a writer and do it as accurately as possible. I want to learn from those who already accomplished some of the goals that I am striving for. I want to be open-minded and inquisitive. I want to be a better thinker. I will improve by constantly trying, trying by expressing my opinion without fearing backlash. I don’t want to fear being wrong. Being wrong is not a death sentence. Being wrong is not blasphemy. Being wrong is not the end of the world! Being wrong is an opportunity to learn from a mistake. I want to break free of my #shyness. I want people to get to know me, the real me. I want to feel free, free enough to say exactly what is on my mind. I don’t want to search for the ‘right’ thing to say. Why do I always have to say the ‘right’ thing? I don’t want to fear offending people so much, especially when what I am saying is really not a big deal. I want to fall in #love, really in love, like, head over heels in love with someone. I want to be in a relationship that doesn’t feel like a job. I want to feel appreciated. I want a man that will show me and express his love for me. I want him to be affectionate. I want him to be thoughtful, caring and trustworthy. I want him to be smart, committed, ambitious, and strong. I want to be married to him. I want him to be the father of my children. Yes, I want more kids, a total of 4 kids would be nice. I want to be all of that and more. I do. I want to own my own house and purchase a brand new car soon. I want to be financially stable and independent. I want to manage my finances better and get rid of my debt within this decade of my life. I want to have a substantial savings account. I want to guarantee my children’s education through my savings. I want to teach my children financially responsibility at an early age. I want meaningful #friendships. I want at least one good woman that I can call a genuine friend, a #BFF. Someone that I can confide in and can confide in me. Someone that is kind-hearted, open-minded and loyal. Someone that has my best interest at heart and of course, I would love you just the same, if not more. I want to be an effective decision maker. I’ve learned not too long ago that in order to affect change in my life, I have to be committed to my decisions. Saying them out-loud is not enough. Writing them out to you, is not enough. I have to be committed to the idea of taking actions every single day that drive me towards the changes I want in life. This is a good start. #motherhood #thesecret #daughters #visionboard #blackwoman #blackmothers
Posted on: Sun, 09 Mar 2014 06:47:25 +0000