WHY??? A question that will not be answered until I kneel at my creators feet. A question that no matter what is told to me for now, WILL never be good enough. A question that continues to eat me alive and probably will until I am at peace. Will I ever be at peace?? Where was God that night was something I asked myself over and over. This weekend, I learned that he was with me right in the middle of the storm. Although I couldnt see or feel him, he was there. He gave me the strength I needed to be strong for my family in the middle of this raging storm. He gave me self-control to contain my anger and hurt until I was away from my children. He was there all along even though I thought he wasnt. I do not blame God but I do wonder, why me, why her, why us?? Have we not been through enough already?? At times, I think God overestimates my strength, but just when I think I cant handle anything else, bam there it is. Its like, Hi, Courtney, I know you are still dealing with this but now there is this too. All I can tell you is yes, I still have anger, lots of it. My smile is just a cover up. Each day gets a little better but one thing is true and Natalie Grant said it best last night, WE WILL WIN IN THE END. So, until I get to be held by the Lord and cry and ask why and him tell me why, I will continue to keep the faith, keep praising him and try to move on from this endless storm. Just some things I have learned from the Extraordinary Women Conference. If you would like to go with our group next year, we can sign you up for $49 until March 2014. Let me know if you are interested. Thank you all for your continued prayers!
Posted on: Sun, 20 Oct 2013 01:23:54 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015