WOW, please let me share an inbox I have been having with this amazing guy who suffers from a eating disorder! Hello again Caitlin. I wanted you to know something that Id done yesterday. It both terrified and excited me in equal measure! I was having a truly awful day. Id locked myself away in my room pretty much all day. I barely touched my lunch. Couldnt even leave my room for tea or evening snacktime. The nurses had really tried but I just felt so down. I watched your video again and read some status on your facebook page (not in a weird stalker way, I should add!) And I was inspired again. This time i decised to write a letter. It turned out to be a 7 page long word document. It was a letter to basically everyone I know and care about. So few people know about my eating disorder and whats been going on in my life. I went into complete honesty mode wrote everything down about how much of a struggle lifes been and how Ive coped or in my case probably not coped in order to get by. It was a real warts-n-all type letter. Tonight I sent it out to 18 people. Most knew nothing about my problems at all! Basically, with that one letter, I overturned 7 years of lies and put myself out there for everyone to know me properly for the first time. It was such a scary thing to do. Over the years itd become such hard work just to keep track of who knew what and how much about me that answering a simple question like how are you doing, Nick? Became so hard to answer. But now everyone I know and care about knows everything about me. Its so refreshing to think I no longer have to lie about myself! Its such a weight off my shoulders. It feels like a huge step in my recovery. Thats because of you Caitlin! Youve helped and inspired me to be myself to everyone I know. I cant stress just how huge this is for me! Ok, I couldnt quite put myself out there the way you did with a public video but this was my equivalent. You continue to be an inspiration to me and I thank you from the botton of my heart once again x Your stranger-friend (if thats a thing?), @Nick Wilkins THIS IS THE DEFINITION OF PERFECTION! Someone coming out of their shell and being the person they have always wanted to be and finally sticking their middle finger up to the world of non acceptance. I am so proud that I have inspired Nick, what a great guy! We all need to take a snippet out of Nicks book and be brave enough to tell people how we are really feeling and be proud of it. Love you Nick, I am so proud to call you a friend.
Posted on: Wed, 09 Jul 2014 01:53:55 +0000