Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over. You grab that bottle of poison or pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother/sister knocks on your door to come tell you that dinner is ready. You don’t answer, so she or he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother/sister so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and sister won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there’s an announcement. Ur Class rep tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers/lecturers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling you how awesome you really are. Your ex Boyfriend/Gf the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. She/He can’t handle it. S/he breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends?They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? He or she is in shock. He or she can’t believe it. S/he knew what you were going through, but S/he never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. S/He can’t cry, S/He can’t feel anything. S/he stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that boy/girl with the bright smile and helpful personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother/ sister till doesn’t know you killed yourself, S/he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts her/him, a lot. You were his big brother/sister you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, S/he stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, S/he just loses it. S/he cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days. It’s two years later. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn’t know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? S/he tried to kill himself. S/he didn’t succeed like you did, but he tried… your brother/sister? S/he finally found out the truth about your death. S/He self harms, cries at night, does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t just effect you. They effect everyone. Don’t end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if you give up. I’m here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we’ve NEVER talked before, i’m here for you. People care about you more than youll ever know...
Posted on: Sun, 13 Jul 2014 12:14:22 +0000
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