Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this: You come home from school one day. Youve had yet another horrible day. Youre just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note youve written and rewritten over and over + over. You take out those razor blades, + cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills + take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You dont answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks youre asleep. He tells your mum this. Your mum goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand + reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. Shes screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that Mummy is crying + his sister wont wake up. Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mum, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, whats going on, and he screams. He screams + throws something at the wall. + then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mum crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, theres an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, + once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those girls that slagged you off, they think of all the things theyve said to you. That boy that used to tease you + call you names, he cant help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything too! The one who you loved with all your heart but broke up with him coz of shit stirers didnt wanna see you happy! He cant handle it. He breaks down + starts crying, + runs out of the school. Your friends? Theyre sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? Shes in shock. She cant believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad... Bad enough for you to end it. She cant cry, she cant feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, + just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. Its a few days later, at your funeral. Everyone who knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyones crying, your little brother still doesnt know you killed yourself, hes too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesnt stop for days. Those girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesnt know how to love anymore + has tried to kill himself and just sleeps around with girls coz hes broken! Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didnt succeed like you did, but she tried...your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mum got diagnosed with depression + just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices dont just effect you. They effect everyone. Dont end your life, you have so much to live for. Things cant get better if you GIVE UP This is just something iv read + find it so strong! Everyone is going through some sort of struggle in there life but you just have stay STRONG! 💕 Im here for every single person who feels this way, I wont turn my back on you or laugh at you the way some people would if they knew what you were going through or what you have been through in your life. They should be helping you through it all not holding you back and making you feel worthless. Having restless night because your scared of whats going to be said about you next. Crying yourself to sleep every night praying to god that it will all be okay in the morning and everything will be different isnt the way to be. Were still young we have so much ahead of us. We should be happy going out with friends/family just trying to stay happy not just for your sake but for your loved ones around you so they dont feel your pain but they know you so well they feel your pain no matter what you do. Im here for everyone who feels like there is no way to cope anymore, you feel like theres no one to talk to but you can always no matter what you can always turn to me weather weve argued or you just dont like me I honestly couldnt care just so you can talk to someone you can always talk to me 😘ðŸ˜ðŸ’–
Posted on: Thu, 04 Dec 2014 00:16:36 +0000
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