We can often gaze into the life experience of another, and see so easily ... so readily ... and so quickly ... the many simple solutions surrounding the individual having the experience. Within that moment of experience, within all of those thoughts and emotions surrounding our perception like so many bubble-like cloudy spheres of discombobulated and malformed half-thoughts and partial truths ... it can be nearly impossible to perceive those same simple solutions. One thing that I take away from the last few years as one of the major life lessons Ive been learning lately, is that the only way anything can ever change is if you yourself make a change. If I want something to change in the outcome of the courses of events unfolding in my day to day life, Ill need to step out and make some kind of shift in my actions in order to effect that change. Every time I have found my self desperate for something .... different .... to happen in my life than the regular mundane ... I have found that I myself have always had to step radically outside of my comfort zone and make it happen. Ive moved across the country with no real plans. Twice. Ive hitched with no money in my pocket to get to campsites to meet friends in weird situations. Ive camped on gravel parking lots with people I hardly knew, who grew to be a second family to me. Ive gone to a dark alley practice dungeon-like place (not actually, its actually a really chill rehearsal space lol) to meet with people from the internet who turned into yet ANOTHER second family to me. And, I mean, this is the super short super recent list. Im not trying to brag at all. Ive no reason to brag and nothing to brag about, no reason to boast and no desire to. Im just trying to make a point. Every time something has changed in my life, its because I did something about my situation. I made a move. I met somebody. I went somewhere. I changed my way of thinking about something. I shifted my perception. Time and time again, I and I alone have had to act on my behalf to make changes in my life. I dont think anybody is any different. It seems like we all have to make the motion, we all must make things happen in our lives. If you want something to change, if you want something else to happen for you, whatever that is, you and you alone will have to change something in your life. One action. One thought pattern. One comfort zone. You have to make the change because, nobody is coming around to make changes for you. Nobody is coming to save you. No one is on their way to act in your life on your behalf, sweep you off your feet, or rescue you from your own shadowy muck and mire. If they did? Theyd be violating free will. And in a HUGE way. For someone to step in and become actor for you and chooser for you and decider for you, would be baneful, dark, sorcerous hoodoo. No. You must choose. YOU alone can do your will. Others will be there. Others will come around and make influences. Positive, negative, constructive, destructive, and on and on and on. People from all walks of life will step in here and there, and maybe even pretend to want to take on your deciding power for you, but really they just want some of your energy for a little while until theyre bored with it. It can be a good experience too, thats not always a negative time actually. Theres almost always a negative effect, all things considered, but few things in this universe are as black and white as our minds wish to perceive them. Others will be there. Some will support you. Some will lift you up. Some will hold you to your highest standard, and demand nothing less than the most of what you are capable of. Keep those people close by. Others will lean on you. Drag you down. Take you to your lowest and expect only the worse. Keep them at a distance, but keep them around for the reflection of where you dont want to be. Desperation worries me. It is when we are most desperate for an effect, that we are most ready and willing to accept the worse possibilities towards those ends. It is when we are most desperate for a thing to come into our lives, that we are most willing to sacrifice even our own selves for that thing. When desperation seeps in, try to remember, all you need to do is make changes and stop worrying and remember: Youre right where you were suppose to be. If you werent suppose to be here, you wouldnt be. If you were suppose to have what you want, you would. For whatever reason, youve held yourself back. Rejoice in that. Youre probably just not ready for whatever it is around the corner.
Posted on: Sat, 05 Jul 2014 08:21:29 +0000