We received the news yesterday that Im in chronic rejection and that more than likely I was in chronic rejection when I came in and they missed it. They said and I quote, my lungs are angry and severely inflamed. My PFTs are at 37% and Im definitely feeling it. My body is trying to compensate for the loss of lung function. Im now on oxygen, whether Ill be oxygen dependent from now on, Im not sure. They are starting high doses of steroids again to see if theyll help. This is my nightmare. Im not saying this is it because its not! But rejection has been my worst fear since I transplanted. I never wanted to feel this feeling again. Do you know what its like to not be able to breathe? To feel so out of breath from walking not even 10 feet that you feel like youre going to pass out? Yeah its a terrible feeling. Ive had nightmares about this. About my lung function being back in the 30s and Ive woke up sweating and crying. But I will say this, here and now. I WILL beat this! I WILL come out of this! Because my God is an awesome God! My God loves me! He gave me a second chance at life and I know that he will continue to carry me! - The Lord replied, The times when you have seen only one set of footprints, is when I carried you. Psalm 73:26 - My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. II Corinthians 12:7 I am the body of Christ and Satan has no power over me Philippians 4:13 - I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. .. I also wanted to address visitors. I would love it! Just get with me or mama on when. You mustnt be sick at ALL! Any time of day is fine unless I have a procedure to go to. I really am overwhelmed with the out pour of love and prayers we have been receiving. Its been amazing! Ive tried to like every post so yall know Ive seen it. If youve texted me, called or messaged me on here and Ive been slow to respond, Im sorry! My body is just tired right now but I will get to you! I promise! If youd like my cell number to text me then message me and I will get it to you! Again, thank you, thank you, thank you for all the prayers! We know for a fact that prayers work! I will have an even more amazing testimony after this is said and done! God is in control! I love yall! Xoxo - whit
Posted on: Thu, 11 Sep 2014 09:41:21 +0000
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