Well I woke up in such a beautiful mood today! Was thinking positive and was determined to get shit done. And Im actually Im kind of shocked that I was in such a good mood and was feeling so happythis morning considering I havent been getting good sleep at all lately! This past 2 weeks now I have either woke myself up or other people have woke me up during my sleep because I would end up waking myself up by bawling in my sleep. Yeah multiple days now I wow up like that. And for who ever dont know why its because of dreaming about my two middle babies. Something that has been really bothering me lately. And I mean bad. But YEAH anyhow woke up finally for once not trying and in a happy mood but that got messed up real quick! Over something people are not understanding. Wish people could feel for one day just how I feel and the painful memories that go threw my head every single day. And the feeling of having a empty hole there that I cant do much about right now. Nd thats what really kills me. So if ur thinking I gave up or that I dont care or that i dont think about this every dam day serval times a day you got another thing coming! But thank you for ruining the one day I finally wake up without crying over the situation! Nd thank u for having to write personal shit that should be privately messaged between us not under a new posted picture of the baby! A picture that like 30 people liked nd commented under just had to be deleted off of Facebook now just because u felt a need to put that were the hoke world could see! It is none of other peoples business and we are so worried that the check out my page from time to time to see what Im up to then why the Sam hell would you post that at a opened viewed area! But due to this something I was already feeling terrible nd guilty about now made it were I will not be on uploading any new pics of the babe. So if anyone would like to enjoy any pics plz go under her fathers page! But yes Im hoping that this will kind of blow over I just got my bawling out again for the time beginning because I had other plans for the day to help change our lives for the better! But right now Im not feeling up to it. Now I feel like just crawling in a ball and sleeping my sad time away! As far as everyone else well I hope all my other friends nd family members have a lovely day!
Posted on: Tue, 25 Nov 2014 12:41:38 +0000