Well a cross roads that something is forcing me to make some changes. These last few years I have vented posted and been a fool trying to find happiness again. Some post malicious some just me not thinking. However, it has not worked and just made me more stuck. I dont know if it was depression fear guilt hate and I dont know what stopped me from really fixing it At first maybe it was the thought of making the changes and if I did that I would have to turn the page in my book and would have to change some characters or maybe just lost my confidence that once shined. I just kept trying to fix everyone eleses life which I did, but destroyed mine in the process and now I am SOL. The funny thing is I am not mad sad or ticked off at the idea that my life just crashed. In a funny way I am excited to have my hand forced. Who knows but now I am not given a choice and all the signs telling showing me the road. Even the church which seems to be doing a series of sermons about me. People are still asking to join my Holiday Spirit Challenge so with it all together I decided after hearing Dennis today to make a 30 day challenge. He said a few things today that was a moment. One was an analogy about buzzards and hummingbirds. Just as a buzzard circles and finds the dead the (changing it to butterflies) circle and find the flowers and the sweetness. So challenge if you can look in the mirror if you can go 30 days trying to find the sweet and not the dead follow my challenge page I am creating. It is for me and anyone that wants to change their thinking so I am going to be honest It will be raw, I am going to try to turn there and vent positive instead of flipping out. It will be full of prayers and pain. I know several people that could benefit from the page and the podcasts I am going to post. I dare you to just try it. I dare you to start this new year as Dennis says in baby steps and small issues. So if you feel stuck and life is just passing you by if you need to change your habits or thinking maybe we can work on it together. If not I will still say prayers for you. Look at it this way if you can put up with all my negative vents surly you can try this for 30 days. Who knows you just might get something out of it:-) BTW Not everyone that judges my posts are judging accurately even the negative ones. You would be surprised how many people in box me due to my posts that they are going through something and the post helped them, or one of my posts was put up due to a message. So you really should be careful of judging others. 30 day challenge I can do this:-) Come help me create something postive for people who need prayers changes or just someone. Maybe its not you but I am sure you know someone that someones post might help heal
Posted on: Sun, 11 Jan 2015 16:50:53 +0000