Well, it is almost Christmas. The best day of the year! It is going to be, and has been, so hard for me. I love and miss my Brooke tremendously! She was such a sweet soul and anyone that knew her, knew just how loving she was. I keep thinking of how she said, two months before she passed , that all she wanted for Christmas this year was to be well. She had tears in her eyes and insisted we find Santa. I explained that she didnt need to find Santa, that all she had to do was talk to Jesus about it. Shortly after our conversation, her health declined. She stopped eating first and then she stopped talking. It was heartbreaking and I missed her voice so much. Then, on a horrible day in July, I knew what was coming. Her oxygen was in the 70s, and slowly dropping every few minutes, and her heart rate was at its highest. I started playing all of her favorite songs and talked to her. We had two hours together in peace, just my Brooke and I. Thats what I had wanted if it had to come to me losing her. I prayed that the Lord would give me the knowledge to know when it was happening, and to give me time to talk to her. I told her how much I would miss her, but that it was time for her to be with Jesus. He was the only other person I trusted with my Brooke! Then a few hours later around 5:15 she went peacefully in my arms. It was the hardest thing that I have ever been through. Now, that Christmas is here, I cant help but think that Jesus gave Brooke the ultimate gift. She is in HEAVEN with him this year. No more pokes from needles and no more bruises. No wheelchair! Because SHE CAN RUN! No more medicine that made her sick and made her beautiful hair fall out. She is well! Knowing that she has her Christmas wish I am not as upset as I was. Jesus gave us all a gift. The gift of salvation! That one day we can all see our loved ones and be together if we love him and believe in him! And I will see my Brooke again! I miss her so much, but I wouldnt ask for her to be back on this horrible Earth. I can deal with missing her as long as she is happy with Jesus. Merry Christmas everyone! I hope that you all understand the true meaning of Christmas! May 2015 be a blessed year for us all.
Posted on: Tue, 23 Dec 2014 17:48:21 +0000
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