Well my friends,, its time to let the cat out of the bag! I have watched so many of you post selfies, ive seen you let friends take pictures of you, Ive seen you in your family pics. I dont have many selfies, family pics with me in them, ect,,ect,,, for a reason! Over the years since my first child, I came to accept that I was a big girl. I stayed at a constant 220 for many years and truly did not look like it. Working in the Post Office, you work out while you do your job and I had the job that made you sweat each shift because I was always on the move and always lifting heavy things. 220lbs was distributed throughout my entire frame and I had muscle built up! I enjoyed the heavy lifting for the first few years because I was a strong girl! Then, low and behold, I did too much and landed on sick leave for 3 months while my back finally repaired itself to the point where I could go back to work. Then the game changed! The weight started creeping on! Slowly for the first few years as my job changed within the Post Office, then exponentially when I moved to the Gulf Coast, approx 9 years ago. (Did I mention my Hubby kicks me out of the kitchen and cooks?) I ended up at the heaviest I have ever been at the beginning of this year! A whopping, 277lbs!!! Yes, you read that right, Just a short hop, step and pizza from the big 300 !! In Between all of this weight gain ive had 2 surgeries on my left knee and three on my right. Not very helpful to getting the proper movement needed to keep the ol waistband in check! My last knee surgery was the wake up call I have been in dire need of. If I had not been as young as I am, instead of just cleaning out the nasty bumps, hooks and snags that at times, kept my knee from even straightening out, I would have had a full knee replacement! So I found myself facing the prospect of having that much needed replacement, as early as I could, when I finally hit the golden age of being allowed to have one. Heres the kicker! If,,,If,,, the doctors are able to leave enough of my bone on either side of my kneecap, I would be eligible for a second replacement. But, never a third! Which basically boils down to the reality, I will be spending my late golden years, in a wheelchair! In order to avoid the impending dooms day scenario, I have to keep that replacement surgery, as far into the future as possible! The weight NEEDS to go in order for this to happen! (Not a matter of if,, but when!!) I started doing some heavy duty research on the gastric bypass, scary!!!! Lap band,,still scary but a lot of maintenance and structure needed! I was leaning heavily on having a gastric sleeve done. ( Your kidney shaped stomach is relieved of its bulge and your stomach then resembles a banana) The best option that I had been drawn to and, is still a possibility. You can still eat what you want, just MUCH smaller portions! One of the requirements is having a dr monitored diet for at least 3 months so, off to my dr I go! He tells me to continue my slim fast breakfast,(something Ive been doing for quite a few months with no result), and prescribes me a pill. So, here we are. 3 months later and 30lbs, two pant sizes gone (along with my double chin!) and hope for my future renewed! This is going to be a lifestyle change. Im still allowing myself to cheat on the occasion, (That homemade blueberry muffin was INCREDIBLE!), Im not chastising myself for keeping to a certain amount of food, not weighing myself every day and obsessing over every ounce, I am just eating less because I have gotten to the point where I dont need to eat that much! Bread and sugar have gone away, except for the occasional cheat day and fresh fruits and raw veggies have become my meals. I have my shake in the morning, snack at midmorning (fruit or protein bar), a full portion lunch (main meal of the day), another fruit or protein bar mid afternoon if I get hungry, then a big bowl of mixed fruit and veggies for dinner! Im well into this and I know there is always a rebound of sorts, thats ok! If the world was perfect, I would have never gotten to this point in the first place! So to make a long story short,(I know, too late,,),,, I am going to start opening up more on this page and do a little bit more sharing on my progress, pitfalls and prattfalls! Mostly just to keep myself honest and on track! My goal, to get down past 170! I know I can do it. Time will prove me right!! Thanks for reading my rant and feel free to take me to task! I welcome the much needed help and encouragement Im going to need when it gets to the nitty gritty!! Signing off, good night and I truly hope that your morning is a beautiful one!
Posted on: Sat, 18 Oct 2014 02:06:31 +0000
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