Went to Wal Marts and bought sconces..2 per box small sconces. Now I have them all lite up and it reminds me of a castle(Castles are my favorite homes and if I ever win the lottery..Im going to have someone build me a small castle). I am sharing my Netflix with my mom thought Id be nice that way. Have beans soaking and also purchased a ham for the beans to flavor it..along with thyme and bay leaves for some sorta flavor. I cant wait for my ORIENTAL RUG, CANVAS ART, AND LORD OF THE RINGS-ring, to come!!! This is in part the new me...not the comic book geek me. I do truely love comic book art..especially air brushed works. I also love a good comic book story...hey even the shows and movies I watch have to have or be written to my interest. When I lived in PA, I had people call me by my middle name Star..I was soo tired of hearing, Your parents must be hippies Stars a girls name or plain hearing how I got to be called Star. Now a days I prefer to be referred as Star Terry Melton my full name..not just my first name..to me, its more powerful when someone calls me by my full name. I am unlike anyone. Most people try to read me..but they are always way off...not just on another page...but a totally different book. In my profile on FB I have that Im separated..WELL IM ACTUALLY SINGLE AND LIKE GIRLS. But I dont want to get close to anyone just yet. Not sure if anyone out there could like me for me...which includes not going out which is or would be a major obstacle for the other person. I am pretty much keep to myself avoiding social situation which would be a problem for anyone. My anxiety kills me and I HATE WHEN WAVE AFTER WAVE OF ANXIETY rushes over me. I have bathroom issues almost immediately. I can control my body language when anxiety rushes through my body..its like a feeling unlike anything...a buncha mix emotions rampaging me. Inside I feel this way but outside to the normal person I may look calm. So..I do want a girlfriend or at least a girl that is a friend but my anxiety kills me of having a normal relationship with someone who has lots of friends and loves to go out. More you do something the easier it becomes..if I would just take baby steps in doing so..it may take awhile to overcome but its do able. I have to do stuff that raises my anxiety and keep doing it until it becomes normal for me..but I keep hiding in my apartment, not sure when Ill take those first steps to conquering my anxiety when I feel safe at home.
Posted on: Thu, 30 Jan 2014 01:19:29 +0000