What I learned in Jiu Jitsu this week: Throwing a tantrum when I am having a hard time defending something is no way to act. How embarrassing. I attend BJJ so that I can control my temper. Anger, depression, anxiety, and frustration are just a few of the things BJJ treats with precision accuracy when nothing else works. However, I have to be somewhat calculated in this treatment option. I cannot let my temper fly off away from me. I have to be looking for it before it happens. I owe my team mates and my coaches more than how I acted Wednesday night. I am sorry. Things were going great then I dont exactly know what happened. I sort of exploded out of no where. It happens with me sometimes. Not very much any more, especially as long as I am training often. I know that Parrumpinha would not be happy about my attitude display and I try to remember ALWAYS that what he has given me needs to be respected at all times. I try to bring this philosophy into my daily living, in every aspect. I was feeling really frustrated, and afterwards, very much embarrassed. Thank you Kevin Kopecky for coming in and reminding me that my outbursts are not welcomed or tolerated at the academy. This is not the first time I have had to apologize at a gym for getting angry. I try really hard to change this part of me. I appreciate your understanding and grace in explaining to me that my behavior was unacceptable. I thoroughly appreciate your faith in me. Thank you Alan Stockman for teaching class Wed and for spending so much extra time with me afterwards. I learned a lot from that. Youre a class act and your reputation was accurate. You are both tough as nails and kind as can be. I am very grateful. Thank you Evan Mannweiler for always giving me more of your time than you have to give. Thank you for helping me start to put the details together that will ultimately make me a better artist. I appreciate every second you donate to my cause. Thank you Brad Maddox for always opening you doors and your knowledge to me without reservation. I learn SO MUCH from you and all the guys there. I always go home thinking of some analogy you use to help me assimilate the techniques you teach me. Thanks to ALL of my training partners!!!! Without you guys I would still be a wrestler.
Posted on: Sat, 02 Aug 2014 03:02:22 +0000