What a day yesterday, I think losing a child is the worst thing ever, yesterday I couldnt even put two sentence together that made sense.. I know this last year has been full of ups and down but boy yesterday really and truly sucked,,, I dont know if time really heals the heart ache you feel or denial helps you cope? Every year on the day your child left this world there is no denial that can get you through that. I thought about everything, when she was born all of her health issues, when she started school and how happy she was to start high school, her strong personality and her weekness, what I could have done different, things I would not change and a clear as the day the moment I was told Susan her heart is failing do you want to get in the bed and when I knew she left this world...I know Kayla is free from all machine, running and breathing free and easy. I miss her every day and I think of her everyday but I know in my heart she is not suffering and I believe towards the end she suffered her transplant was not the way she wanted it to be..Our family is blessed to have support not only from our own friends and family but from people in our community and around the world. I received so many emails and I will read every single one. Im also very blessed to have Kennedy Baker she is just a kid but all grown up, Where most kids are our partying and celebrating the New Years she and Eric Goettling choose to be with her boring parents... Thank you Kennedy and Eric... Thank you to everyone that respected our privacy and giving us the day to grieve Kayla... We chose to release 16 green balloons for what she stood for organ donation and 16 teal balloons her favourite colour, we tied notes to the balloons and wrote on them and sent them free. I know Kayla was there with us because there was a single white swan in the river alone and very calm did not fly away when we went to the river side of the Bob McMullen Trail. Kayla loved that trail and one day I hope to put a bench there in her honour. Thank you again for all of your support
Posted on: Fri, 02 Jan 2015 13:47:16 +0000
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