What is it about Sundays? I remember when I first started working at CKER in the early 90s I was often asked to take calls from listeners who wanted to either compliment or complain. Some of the favorable messages were: Please thank the Program Director for the all-night inspirational music program...since my husband died...I cant sleep and it is such a comfort to listen all night! I tried to be patient with these senior ladies who just wanted to tell somebody...nobody at home to talk to when the partner is gone. NOW I GET IT! That program was hosted by a soothing male FM radio voice...and maybe even sounded like it was God Talking. Unfortunately other programming replaced that all-night music show...and then the calls became more frequent. How the insomniac widows missed their comfort source. I have written before about Sundays...insomnia...missing my cuddle buddy...back and foot-rub partner...my best friend on earth...and widowhood. ...but even after seven years the problem does not go away. Somehow my several divorces ...painful as they were...didnt deliver the degree of impact that the finality of DEATH has! Not to mention that we didnt CHOOSE to end our marriage...we were in the midst of loving unconditionally and living every minute to the fullest. Try as I may...there is NO music ...no book...no project...nobody...who can fill the void. Christians tell me Jesus is ENOUGH!...so there must be something wrong with my FAITH...that I continue to long for the human ...physical inter-action with the one ...whom I became ONE with. THIS...is called Grief. Like it or not...it is inevitable...and will be suffered to the degree that you loved. Circumstances vary...our pasts contribute to the way we allowed ourselves to invest in loving...sometimes it takes a lifetime to even understand what love is...and come to the place where you dare to Trust and risk giving your heart to another. Taking that risk guarantees that one of you will be left with the job of grieving. It is the Price you must pay for having loved so very much. Blessed are those who mourn...for they shall be comforted.
Posted on: Mon, 10 Mar 2014 07:10:15 +0000
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