Whats on my mind? Something my pastor has said more than once of late. Its about this life, and faith, and the longing for what awaits us afterward in the presence of our Lord Jesus, knowing as we are known, seeing Him, being blown away by the depth and height and breadth of His marvelous grace and saving love. BUT... right now, in this brief time we each have on earth, this is the only time in all eternity we have the chance to walk by faith and not by sight. To believe and trust Him, and His good plans for us, no matter what that looks like and feels like in our lives right now. Its the only time we get to do this. Will there be a need for faith and trust and hope in heaven, when all tears are wiped away and we know as we are known? If not, I want to revel in those things right now, and not waste this earth time fretting or striving to figure out a God too big and mind-blowing for my puny brain. I want to trust that what He says of Himself in His word is true. Even in the face of seeming evidence to the contrary in my ever changing circumstances. As an author, I know the plans I have for my characters, plans to give them hope, not harm. Plans to grow them strong through trials, not crush them. Plans to shower them with blessings, if they will not grow weary, if they push on toward the desires of their hearts, which I have placed there in the first place and have every intention of fulfilling, in time. Looking at it thus makes this life with its questions and trials and weariness seem less of a burden to be endured and wished away (something I am prone to doing), and more a fleeting opportunity to walk in faith, and be present in it with all my hearts engagement. Today I am 46 years old, and I dont know whether Im in the middle of my life, or nearing the end, but I feel a sense of times swiftness, and I dont want to miss this blip on the eternal radar screen when I get to experience what its like to love and trust a Heavenly Father I cant see with my eyes, or hear with my ears, or often understand with my tired gray cells, but run to His word with a believing heart wide open, in faith, anticipating that day when I will see and understand.
Posted on: Fri, 31 Oct 2014 13:11:05 +0000
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