When Glenn died my pastor told me I need to reinvent myself. Clueless as to what that meant I pressed forward taking care of all unfinished business. After almost ten months im beginning to consider what reinvention is. Friends and family expect me to live in the past and never move forward. Maybe that would mean Glenn remains in my grief. Still if I press forward and make changes I find myself threatened with judgements, opinions, gossip and out right lack of respect. To today no one has lived in my shoes to know whats in my heart or mind. No one lived my hell. So no one will decide when and how I move forward. Funny I find that those who made Glenns and my life the most miserable when he was alive have the audacity to think they have an opinion about honor or respect. No matter what I do it wont bring Glenn back. My focus daily is on Glenns requests and unfinished business. Which I will accomplish without family support as always. Not including the very few that are there. I thank you. I will finish. I will move on. I wont apologize. I love my family and friends. But let me be clear. I lost my husband not my mind. What I do is my business not yours. All judgments and comments bring to me so I can set everything and everyone straight. I mind my business I ask those who think they have a say or opinion to mind theirs. I love my family and friends My door is always open but to a certain degree... I love my husband eternally. But that doesnt change that hes gone..
Posted on: Thu, 23 Oct 2014 18:57:59 +0000
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