When I first sought the Lord about changing my life for the better, I was motivated and very committed to the process. It wasnt easy but I had laser focus. I lost friends, I was talked about and even misunderstood. To some I may have even come across as self righteous. It was unfamiliar territory for myself. I consistently spent time in fasting and prayer and in meditating and studying Gods word. These things fed my spirit and starved my flesh. I became prideful and I begin to think I had made it out of the woods so to speak. I cant just speak about my victory, I must also tell of my struggles and mistakes along the way. When I am honest about my life, I dont have to worry about people trying to discredit me because Im not living in secret or shame or guilt. I have fallen short even after God has begun a good work in me. A major reason I got off track was because I slacked up in my spiritual practices and that opened the door for compromise and the enemy slid in. I want to believe everyone supports me and believes in me but thats not the truth. Many people have strategically set out to test me and tempt me so they can say, he isnt delivered. I have been my own worst enemy at times because I have given some people the benefit of the doubt and let them in too close even after they revealed there true motives. I realize the tempting and the tests will always be present in one form or another. Walking in the spirit cant be seasonal, it has to become a lifestyle to walk in complete victory. When you leave a spiritual door open, the enemy comes in like a flood and sometimes the consequence is to seemingly start over to regain your position in God. I also realize that there are layers to my personality and my downfalls stem from emotional trauma and misguidance in my childhood. I have shunned counseling but now I believe spiritual warfare and Christian counseling can very well complement each other. Because I am transparent and because I stand for holiness, there is an accountability and responsibility that I must accept. I dont want to be viewed as a hypocrite nor do I want to discourage anyone or have blood on my hands. Even if I try to run from God he will not allow me to succeed because my destiny is in him. Some people who are living in sin arent always proud of it, they may desire to be delivered but dont always have a practical blueprint of how to get out of it. This is why we must build up and encourage others rather than condemn and put down. It is only the finished work of Jesus and his shed blood that qualifies us and not our works. No man can boast. Thank God for mercy, forgiveness, and grace. Now I must reclaim my place in the Lord by putting everything into practice that I know to do. Im older and should be wiser. God is still a deliverer and he is still on the throne. We have to be willing to give up anything and anyone who is a hindrance or distraction from our walk with God. We have hope in God because he will complete every good work he has begun in his time. Be encouraged in Jesus name! SHALOM
Posted on: Mon, 08 Sep 2014 17:47:23 +0000
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