When I was six years old, I was spilled into the deep end of the Y pool intentionally during swim lessons. They wanted me to catch up to the other kids and tread water. It did not work. I had to be pulled from the water by my younger brother. As a teenager, I was taking a tippee test at Camp Tahepia on Georgetown Lake and was pulled from the water by our lifeguard. I was going down again. Since then, I have not been in the water any higher than my chest and never when I could not touch the bottom of the pool or lake. I have always been afraid of the water. Until today ... This morning, I got into the water and spent an hour learning to swim. I discovered that I was struggling, even when the water was able to hold me. I found that I stopped breathing which made me sink faster ... which did not help me to swim. I learned how to stand without scrambling for the bottom of the pool. I floated on my back, breathing, eyes open, enjoying the suns rays and the last glimpses of the moon. And I swam. For the first time in my life, I swam. What I discovered is that my six year old selfs brain patterns were very successful in helping me avoid shock and loss ... when I was six. And I found that I could alter those brain patterns. By shifting my breathing and my actions, my brain followed suit. I am so thankful for Christine Arbor for her patience and compassion as I worked through all of it. It is so shocking to me that after all this time, I could overcome my fear. Thanks, my friend, for opening up 70% of the planet to me. What fear shall I conquer next?
Posted on: Tue, 09 Dec 2014 06:19:59 +0000
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