When life gives you lemons, what are you supposed to do? I dont think give them to a trusted family member and watch helplessly as they squeeze them into open wounds is the most helpful out of the options. For the most part, John and I keep a pretty private life. We have our little bubble and very much enjoy it. So we dont usually update the masses as to whats going on in our lives. We share glimpses of our little slice of heaven and then, instead of worrying about keeping everyone updated on our every move, we stay in the moment and enjoy experiencing it. That being said, we could use a few prayers as well as encouraging distractions. So Im going to do something very out of my comfort zone and share whats been going on between the glimpses that we share. This has been a very special and amazing, yet trying and scary pregnancy. Logan has been loved by us since before he was even in the womb. He is very much a baby that was prayed for and we patiently waited until God said that it was time. But the early days of a relaxing, miraculous pregnancy quickly took a turn in the high risk direction just before Thanksgiving. After several months of searching for what was off, doing our research to understand whats happening, and fighting for our babys well being to not be brushed off at every turn, we finally have a name to call what has caused us so much worry: Obstetric Cholestasis. Basically, mommys liver is not doing its job of processing bile for myself AND Logan, so the bile acids are backed up and overflowing. Since they dont have a way to get from point A to point B, they are being absorbed into my blood stream and literally trying to get out of my body via my pores. What this means for Mommy is EXTREME itchiness. No mild inconvenience here, I itch to the point that I havent had more than 2 hours of sleep a night in quite some time now, despite all of the normal itch remedies and even prescription alternatives, and am covered in scabs and rashes from not being able to tame the itch to a manageable level(so much for those lovely maternity photos I had wanted). It also means that my body is unable to properly absorb vitamin K, which can result in a fatal hemorrhage following delivery if not properly monitored. But whats worse is what it can mean for Logan. While the bile acids are in their frenzy to find somewhere to escape, theyre known in this condition for aging the placenta prematurely, making it unsustainable for life. Once you hit 37 weeks of gestation the risk of stillbirth is very much at play. Weve toggled the fine line between give Logan more time to develop while keeping a watchful eye and the risks outweigh the positives, lets get our baby out before things take a turn for the worse. Through weekly nst/bpps at the hospital to monitor Logans health/make sure his environment is still favorable, and weekly Drs appointments to check on myself and the overall picture, we have come to the conclusion along with our doctor that the safest thing for Logan is to induce at 37 weeks as long as his nst/bpp results come back positively between now and then. We are both excited and terrified, but very thankful that God chose us to parent this special little boy. The stubbornness that he has inherited from his Daddy has already served him well as hes doing amazingly so far. Hopefully things will stay on that same path and we can give his lungs every chance to keep developing on their own. That being said, these past few months have been very stressful. Thankfully I have an amazing husband that has made every single blood test, triage trip, hospital monitoring, and doctors appointment. Hes done everything in his power to make me as comfortable as possible, and is by my side as an advocate for myself and our son. I truly am blessed that my boys have such an amazing father. So while we dont expect people to cater to our situation or to be able to halt their lives to be a support for us in this very serious time, we do hope that people understand that we will not be rescheduling our induction date because the date we have is an inconvenience for you. Every day that our son is in utero past 37 weeks DOUBLES the risk of stillbirth. The date that will hopefully be the birthday of our happy, healthy, thriving, new son is not going to be changed because it fell inconveniently. Babies have a way of showing up when you least expect it, and even though Logans birth is being planned... Please dont confuse that as something that can be rescheduled for selfish reasons. We love everyone in our family, but at this point we are not going to plead to have people share in this special moment with us. We are taking this time to focus on Ayden, Logan, and ourselves. Were not allowing nonsense to further stress us when were already in such a fragile state. We appreciate all of the love and support that we HAVE received from the bottom of our hearts. Logan is already sooooo loved by everyone and thats an amazing thing to know. Please keep Logan in your prayers and know that we love you all. You want to be a part of my life, the door is open. You want to leave my life, the door is open. But dont stand at the door, youre blocking traffic.
Posted on: Wed, 21 Jan 2015 01:33:48 +0000
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