Who Is The Monster In Your Life? I was recently challenged to face the monster in my life.. Its name is rejection.. It first appeared in my early years.. And it made its debut in a very traumatic fashion.. It continued for so long that I became hardened to its lies.. I developed multiple defenses to its penetrating Words.. So much so that I could not even hear them after years of conditioning.. We are so very much about our own choices in life.. And Sadly I kept choosing environments where its voice would be blatant.. During my Professional Life.. I came against it with womens liberation.. (Nothing I Really Believed.. But it worked and I could boldly move forward..) During my personal life I simply dominated or ignored everything.. (Control and Manipulation) Eventually It effected my Health.. Both by the hard life choices.. And its continuous badgering which I had simply become unaware.. I had built up a hidden Sense of Entitlement.. Motivated by self-pity from seeing others being openly loved as I hungered for the same.. I put on mask after mask of deception to make me ok.. ALL deception.. Or Best Known As Sin.. Eventually I completely Lost who I was! And I hungered for something Real ALL of which I was unaware.. By The Grace Of GOD my hunger for something real led me to JESUS.. HE is Real.. HE made HIMSELF Real To Me through HIS most Amazing Love.. In HIS Most Amazing Presence.. I became as a puppy following after HIM.. As HE has torn down mask after mask.. And sin after sin away.. Through Many Trials and Tests I faced and failed.. yet still HIS Mercy remained active.. The Day I Faced This Monster I was Completely overwhelmed by its ugliness and ALL the Ugliness it had produced in me.. I became physically sick.. And In such pain emotionally I could hardly breathe.. My mind was overwhelmed at ALL I could see that seemed so obvious yet had been hidden for so long.. My mind thought that I would not make it through this one.. Or it would take more years than I had left.. to overcome it ALL.. But GOD.. I was not walking this out in the flesh I was walking this out With JESUS.. All it took was for me to be willing to face it.. and see it for what it was.. and had become.. And give it ALL to JESUS.. HE made that part easy.. This Encounter occurred only a few days ago (Even though it seems much longer) I am Getting miraculously Better Everyday.. I see there is a walk.. But not a long walk.. It is already behind me.. And I am walking away from it! JESUS Stands Before Me.. Drawing me closer to HIM.. Praise HIS Holy Name..
Posted on: Thu, 23 Oct 2014 14:01:36 +0000