Why did I bother with makeup today? It was 10 oclock before my eyes open this morning! That never happens... I think this was one of the hardest mornings for me to get out of bed. Of my life! You see, I was having a dream about my granny. She left me 16 years ago, & I miss her everyday of my life! She was here, in my dream. She looked the same as she did the last time I saw her alive! I know its crazy, but she smelled like she always smiled. I can remember smelling her in my dream! Just like Beautiful by Estee Lauder, and Baby Magic. I can remember putting my arms around her and my dream and I didnt want to let her go! I just wanted to feel her. Even if I didnt have my arms around her... I was still touching her. I remember, I ran my fingers through her hair! I could feel her silver curls. And I remember thinking; Granny musta just gotten a perm recently.... I begged her not to go. I asked and pleaded her to stay!!! I remember what she was wearing, I remember the print on the fabric on the furniture, I remember what was sitting on the counter, & a coffee table, I remember her eyes, and her face. She still had that dumb smile, she still hasnt put her teeth in! The way she smelled, our last, her hands. . She was still wearing that Nike tennis shoe on one foot and the boot on the other foot. It was so real! I NEVER sleep late! But this morning, I slept until 10 oclock! I did not want to wake up.... I wanted to leave in that dream! My eyes have been weepy since I woke. I cant seen to get a grip on myself toady. I know she is in a world of peace and happiness and sunshine..... In my world, this first day of August, there is no liquid sunshine. This is TEARS today, from my eyes, my heart, my soul. Constant tears today. I grieve as much today for the loss of my granny as I did 16 years ago. I still mourn. I still miss her. Terribly!!! #onemoreday For those of you who have seen me today, or who will see me at some point... Im a mess! I know this. Its a hard day. Im looking for that rainbow!
Posted on: Fri, 01 Aug 2014 17:45:20 +0000
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