Why the Suicide rate for Transgender people may be so high... As I sit here and think about the tragic fact that 41% of the transgender community thinks about or has tried to commit suicide, I am not so surprised. I am sad, mad and upset, but not shocked. You ask me why? Well I am transgender and even though I am super, super, positive and always looking at the bright side of life, there have been times when I have wanted to end it all. Look, I am just sharing the facts here for those who think I am some Polly Anna type. So why do many think about dying? To me, a trans woman, I see it as a hopeless and bleak outlook on ever making it. Whatever making it is, who the hell knows to be honest, but for some making it means being the most feminine or masculine ideal. You know, our bodies matching up with what we see in our heads as really female or really male to over compensate for the lack of feminine or masculine identity. It may be the fact that most transgender people are poor and cannot get work. Smart, intelligent and very talented people with a bang-up resume and years of experiences miss out on landing that job, all because they go to a face to face interview. What was a huge definite yes on the phone and on paper, is blown away when the potential employer sees you looking like a guy in a dress. Maybe it is because your family thinks youre a Devil worshiper and that you have denied God and become a sodomite. Your children reject and abandon you and even hate you, all because you cant provide for them or are always unemployed. It might be because they are embarrassed about the way you look? Who knows, but if you dont know, no worries, you will because they soon will flame you with horrible phone calls and terrible emails telling you how much of a loser you are. Oh, but maybe its other transgender people too, who tell the transgender person they used to support that they are no longer transitioning and that in fact, trying to be a woman is fake and a mental disorder or that They give us hormones only to shut us up! Maybe its the lack of support or the fact that other trans people are thinking the very same sad thoughts that you are! So you want to give it all up - it becomes futile. It might just be that trans people have nowhere to live or call their own. It might be that transgender people often end up homeless and or must depend on wonderful friends to help. They might just feel like total losers because they cannot support themselves and the most basic needs a human requires. You may consider killing yourself all because there is no option and nowhere to live in 30 days. You see the streets and the cruelty there and you know, because you have been homeless twice already, that you may end up there yet again! This thought alone terrorizes you. Or maybe, just maybe, it might be the fact that you could end up in jail because of a bad mistake and of no fault of your own. It might just be that there is no money for a lawyer or no hope in getting things resolved that someone who is trans may just want to give up. But going to jail or even prison is not a good choice for the trans person as they face rape and abuse and a compete denial of their identity and a trans woman is put in a male jail. But hey there is a bright lining to it all: Christians love us and hope we will repent after being rapped a dozen times! After all we do deserve that because we are wicked. I did not want to post this journal entry at all. But I have always been staunchly truthful. Let my cynical words jar you, move you and cause you to be alarmed that transgender people are in trouble. There is a 41% statistic out there and someone better notice that. I must be honest, I fight becoming a statistic like that every day. Even I want to give up because there is no hope sometimes and I dont know what the hell to do about it. Religious people just giving empty promises that God loves us is useless. People shedding a tear, however nice, does not get us food, shelter and safety. I am sorry that this is not as positive as you may have wanted today, but TDOR is coming and I think the dead would want you to also focus on preventing more dead people from being added to next years TDOR list. Jenny Taylor
Posted on: Fri, 31 Oct 2014 15:37:04 +0000