Wildly inspired by this FB status update today, shared with permission from the poster... I was talking the other day to one of my dearest people about how loving yourself is a roller coaster. Im taking an online course in just this very thing starting tomorrow. But, I was thinking this morning after a great night of conversation with another friend, that most of balance is created over time with work. For all the days I havent loved myself because I wasnt what society calls for, Ill have to allow myself a day of loving myself anyway. For all the years I didnt try out yoga (whichIaminlovewith) because I didnt have the body I saw in that world, Ill have to create equal time as a curvy yogi. For all the minutes I thought I didnt measure up, I will have to spend time feeling like I am all thats needed in the moment - just as I am. Its a strange world that doesnt accept someone because of what they look like. And it all begins to fracture for me at this point in my life. That doesnt mean fall apart, it just means let some new light in. And I move into it as often as I can. But, there are days when I just want to hide away and heal from the pain of what doesnt include me. And I think we all have to do that. Its part of who I am. The hider away. I need that time sometimes to come to my own conclusions. To stop adopting the ideas of the world I live in. The ones that hurt and define me in confining ways. But the ones that feel comfortable because they are the ones that I grew up with and am often surrounded by. So, the truth is that I owe myself a LOT of days of brave love (coining Maras phrase here) to make up for all the days I just didnt know how to do it. I owe myself a lot of waking up and believing I am just as good as everyone else. Having faith that I am here because Im meant to be. Taking charge of building a wall of love that rises just as high as the walls that have blocked it from me. And at some point standing on that wall like Balboa on those Philadelphia steps - my hands in the air, a champion of setting myself free. - Kym Oh yessss.... ((all the happy and inspired tears))
Posted on: Sun, 02 Nov 2014 19:36:25 +0000
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