With Teri Kildow Today I was lying in the hospital bed with my mom, holding her when she took her last breath. As soon as I finally dozed off, her heart stopped to beat. I guess she thought it would be easier on me that way Little did she know I could feel her in every single way I woke up that exact moment and knew right then she was gone, my arm over her chest and she wasnt breathing, I just wanted her to stay I hollered at the nurse and began to get frantic for a moment, but its like she gave me that peace immediately letting me know she was happy now and at peace herself Was is that motherly daughterly bond that feels everything that woke me or was it her spirit passing through my body to tell me goodbye? I dont know but it was an amazing feeling. I felt so frantic at first, but this calming peace came over me. I am going to remember this and how it all happened. It was God. She took her last breath in my arms when it could have been 8 days earlier in her car. God gave me that. And for that I am grateful I got spend that time with her. She wouldnt have wanted it any other way. When things were wrong she wanted me by her side. Thank you God for giving me all that time with her and her with me! And momma thank you cause I bet you asked God to let it happen happen that way when your heart stopped 8 days earlier and you began to walk through those beautiful gates of Heaven! Im gonna be ok today! I love and miss her so much! But she is happy and at peace and would want the same for me! We WILL see eachother again! When I laid there beside you, Could you feel me there? My arms were wrapped around you, And I was stroking your hair. I was talking about all the good times, For me they were every single day. I wanted you to feel love and comfort, And happy in some way. I watched your every breath, And prayed that each one wasnt your last. The time we got to share together, Went by too quick...Too fast. I wanted you to wake up, Please Mum...Open your eyes. Tell me this is a nightmare, And not our goodbyes. As your last breath grew closer, We lay there peacefully together. My heart continually breaking, Because I wanted you forever. Then there it was, Your final breath of air. I didnt want to believe it, This is so cruel and not fair. I held your beautiful face, And prayed youd breath again. I wasnt ready for you to go, I couldnt admit that this was the end. But then I realized that you were now in peace, And not suffering anymore. You were beginning the life of an Angel, And your body would no longer be sore. I held you close and squeezed you tight, And tried to say goodbye. Ive lost my Mum and my number one best friend, All my heart could do is cry. I slowly got up, I wanted so much to stay. I leaned over and gave you one more kiss, It was so hard to walk away. Mum you are my entire world, And I miss you so very much. I wish I could feel your loveable cuddle, And your soft and gentle touch. But for now I have to wait, Until we meet again. You will always be in my heart and thoughts, My dear Mum and best friend. Always and Forever, Our hearts will always touch. Always and Forever, Your baby girl loves you so much. Source: familyfriendpoems/poem/our-hearts-will-always-touch#ixzz3O9FwxJ68 Family Friend Poem
Posted on: Wed, 07 Jan 2015 15:30:51 +0000