Woke up around 5 from an unpleasant dream....not a nightmare, nothing scary, just sad and anger inducing. Thought for a minute I was at my Grandmoms house with the whole family and my mom was about to climb in bed with me for lack of other beds. Took a minute to clear my head and remember Ill never be there again....and that Ive been disowned by most of my family. Most of who I still love and miss terribly. Havent been able to get back to sleep.....only got about 3 hours. Anyone out there know how it feels when people you thought loved you unconditionally all your life.....that you thought would always be there suddenly arent anymore? And you did nothing wrong? Heartbreak, sadness, confusion, abandonment, betrayal, anger, grief, loss, disbelief, etc.....alll things Im still feeling over a year later. If youre not familliar with the term, look up cognitive disonanace....Im not sure about the degree of severity...whether this qualifies or not....but its pretty much how I feel.
Posted on: Mon, 24 Mar 2014 10:56:28 +0000
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