Wow, what an adventure these past few months have been. Last April I took a huge risk… I literally JUMPED out of my comfort zone. I truly believe that if it wasn’t for attending the Inspired Leadership Training (ILA), there would have been no way; I could have done what I did. All the feelings of not knowing the unknown freaked me out. I think that’s what motivated me even more (FEAR can be the energy to do your best in a new situation). I put full trust in my decision, and I haven’t looked back since. (Self-trust is the first secret of success – Ralph Waldo Emerson) Last April, I left a permanent, full benefited position, to come work at UAF as a temporary employee, as the Nenana Center Coordinator… This was the first time in over 10 years that I wasn’t permanent/full benefits. My husband unfortunately doesn’t have health insurance, so we depend on my private health insurance. Before I did that though, I set my intentions and they were very clear. My main intention was to learn as much as I could with the position, and eventually become permanent. As well as LOVE what I do. Previously I was in the clerical field, so jumping to something clearly unfamiliar was just as scary. EVERYTHING was brand new to me! If this wasn’t scary enough…. In July I was offered a job, which I wasn’t even looking for. This job had very good pay, with awesome benefits. I know without a doubt that I would have succeeded and probably would have gone far within the Doyon Corporation. I again, whipped out my ILA tools, and began some processes. I also met with my amazing and awesome mentors for guidance, (am I so ever grateful for all of them). I again set very clear intentions… In my previous job, I was away from my family a lot. And at Doyon, I knew that would be another sacrifice. It was another very tough decision, but in the end I decided to continue working towards becoming permanent at UAF, as the Nenana Center Coordinator. Some pros that kept me going for this job was; summers & holidays off with my kids, free tuition for my family, truly incredible supervisor & coworkers, the position itself is super inspiring and very fulfilling, I have the opportunity to be out of my comfort zone while doing something brand new, very rewarding job, good pay/benefits, flexibility in my hours, family oriented, oh and so much more… Then, that self-doubt kicked me in my butt. I was so frustrated that I wasn’t learning my job fast enough. I was AFRAID of making mistakes, and messing up a student’s schedule. I even closed my door one morning in tears. I literally was getting ready to pack up my desk, and go home. Right at that time, I got an email from my AWESOME boss, who was requesting some documents ASAP. Hahaha, I cleared my tears, and said; ok I’ll leave after I do this. By that afternoon, I was laughing at myself for even letting my little friends, (fear, guilt, unworthiness, hurt feelings, anger, and discouragement,) take over and control me. Not to mention some really special people who really encouraged me and helped me get through that tough time. I am NOW very grateful that I had the opportunity to experience ALL of those feelings and emotions. I also laughed, because I know I am not the one to give up and walk. I had people who trusted and believed in me, and really helped motivate me. Today I am very proud of taking that scary leap into the unknown, outta my comfort zone… because I have accepted the position as the PERMANENT Nenana Center Coordinator! I am excited and energized to be the very best that I can in this position. To all of you who supported me, believed in me, and never lost faith in me… I am truly grateful for you all! Especially my husband, who probably at times, thought I nuts. And lastly, Tracy and Nina who I heard many times in my head, “What does Angela want to experience”. My intention for writing this LONG LONG LONG comment, is to hopefully inspire others to take that leap of faith into the unknown as well.
Posted on: Thu, 02 Oct 2014 23:57:51 +0000