Yesterday I was at work and the work ethics of my boys got called out along with the way i manage there time and mine. This outraged me because we have never once missed a deadline or not done a superb job in what we do. Because this guy was having a bad day he took it out on us and i lost it. For about a month now people have been saying i am hiring and firing people based on if they are christian enough. The rumors being spread about me and my crew are at an all time high and i am just sick of all the lies and just plain tired. But yesterday i allowed all that to to build up as i snapped on this man. I can not repeat the things i said because there are to many four letter words involved. As i attacked this man verbally and threatened to break his jaw if he continued to talk and accuse me and my boys i could hear the Holy Spirit in my head asking me to stop and calm down but i refused to listen. This is what actually bothered me the most. I then told my boys to pack up and leave we were out of there. I ran to church as quick as i could out of fear that i was going to tear something apart or someone. After about an hour i began to calm down as my Pastors talked with me and corrected me and prayed with me. You see what Pastor Frank and Pastor Rob pointed out as they listened to me rant and rave about how sick i was of my anger and how and why would God want me to have this and not take it from me. As it is one of my only weaknesses i have left in my armor. Why cant i stop myself from destroying everything around me with anger instead of controlling it and listening to the Holy Spirit. Pastor Frank pointed out something i never thought of before. He said it was pride that was my trigger to anger not the anger itself that was the problem. So today i ask You Jesus to take this thing that has been hiding in the corners of my soul called pride. I never thought that was an issue with me but i see now that it is my biggest issue. Jesus i do not want it. All i want is to be like You and to do that You must take this pride from me. So in Your name and the power that is in it i bind pride in myself. I am calling it out by name and offering it to You and begging You to take it from me. Because if that is truly my trigger than PLEASE destroy it. As for me and that guy somehow Jesus used this situation to allow both of us to apologize to each other and tell each other how much we appreciated each other and the work both of us were doing. I asked him if he would forgive me and made sure to let him know that was not by any means a good representation of Jesus and i was sorry. I said what you witnessed there was my old man and what i use to be and still struggle with daily. So thank You Jesus for once again teaching me humility through my anger. BUT most of all thank You for two strong men of God Pastor Frank and Pastor Rob who corrected me and pointed out and finally gave a name to my root problem. So Pride be gone in the name of Jesus. Holy Spirit please chase it out of me because it does not belong in a Temple of God! It says in Titus 3:5 this. Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost. Yall have a blessed day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted on: Fri, 22 Aug 2014 10:56:38 +0000
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