Yesterday, a bunch of stuff led us to believe that our workshop was not meant to happen yesterday. But we went forward anyway. Only to have just a handful of people show up for the workshop, because come to find out many people thought it was canceled, because of a fb error. Which we didnt find out right away so I felt really shocked, sad, and embarrassed. But what I was actually feeling was triggered. That situation stirred up a lot of dormant feelings in me, that apparently needed to be dealt with first! I felt really confused, and even wanted to blame myself. Because of the turn out, and other people wanting to come that couldnt make it we decided to post pone it to September, and so far the Universe approves of this. Yesterday I did shed a lot of tears. I didnt understand why it wasnt ready to happen yet. And it was really hard for me to feel feelings of trust for the timing and process, when i felt so deeply triggered! As I was feeling these emotions yesterday that I just couldnt seem to shake or even figure out where those feelings truly came from. I went a few rounds with billy our punching bag(yes we named him billy) and then my mom, Robbie Porter took me, Genevieve Lightworker and our best friend Telsa Merie Ristau out to one of our favorite places to eat. In her white mini cooper convertible blaring brighter than the sun By Colbie Caillat. I so badly wanted to participate in their singing to strangers on the street, and fun, but I just felt so hurt on the inside. I could feel my spirit just wanted to be happy, free, and have some fun. But there was something heavy over top of it. Which made me cry, haha. After getting a good cry out I was able to do what I wanted to do, which was have some fun, and be happy!! So I joined in, and we played that song all over town really loud, serenading receptive, and non receptive people on the street, in cars, construction workers, and even a cop. lol It was so amazing to see the happiness spread to other people like wild fire. Because ultimately that was the purpose of our workshop. Its contagious guys. After all of that fun, with those amazing ladies I went home and some more sadness surfaced. I just really wanted to know where it came from, but it wasnt ready to show its self yet. So I set the intention for it to show its self to me, in a dream, and it did. I had a dream of an emotionally traumatic event for me, and woke up feeling really sad, but this sadness was great because, it was leaving!! I confronted my feelings, and faced them, and am still going through them but I feel this amazing healing energy taking place in me right now, and I am so grateful, because I feel a deeper love for myself and others emerging because of it. Keep an eye out for our workshop in September, and mark your calenders. Its going to be even more amazing than originally thought!!
Posted on: Thu, 31 Jul 2014 18:17:44 +0000