Yesterday was the day I submitted myself to my Abba by emerging myself in water. There were 2 other women and a man led us into the water, prayed with us and read scriptures. We all went under at the same time and all came up, us 3 women that is. Lovely!! As we drove through Gatlinburg on Shabbat, I found it profound to be driving through people milling about like busy ants all searching for the next thrill, the next purchase and without one ounce of regard that it was a set-apart day. I was SO grateful to know I was driving through the chaos to go renew my covenant with my Abba and it made me see how far Id come from those days. The water shouldve been cold enough to take our breath, but you know. it really wasnt. It was comfortable. I dont remember ever becoming chilled. I do remember crying as the scriptures were read. I do remember laughing with joy, giggling when I came up. Beautiful, beautiful area. Just breath taking! You can see Abbas hand all over these mountains, creeks, valleys and etc. You can also see where man has forgotten to honor him along the way. Today, I drove to Seveirville to spend time with Jennifer and Joe in their motel room. They do an online service during Shabbats and feast for people who dont have a fellowship or are homebound. It was really good....what I heard.... I had so much peace with them and was so tired I just slept! LOL I was a little embarrassed, but they were so gracious. I so enjoyed my time with them and came back with some GREAT tasting humus! I love my GPS on my phone!! It keeps taking me to new places! Came back a way Id not gone before and there was just enough light and just enough break in the rain to enjoy it. Tomorrow Obadyiah and Abigail Bagwell Owen will be coming up with their little red headed daughter. Ive met him, but never his ladies. I am very excited!! Something Ive had on my mind lately. We often give and give of ourselves when in service to our Abba. We may not do it like others think we should, we may even totally fail, but we give all weve got to give. Sometimes, we need to step back and just rest. For me, Ive had some very special people involved with pulling me through some dark days. One in particular has pushed me to realize in my grief, weariness and all of the changes I was forgetting to THINK like a daughter of Yahuah. I tend to let my thoughts go in places they shouldnt. I am not good enough, not lovable, just discarded trash and etc. This is NOT how a daughter of Yahuah should think and I do it when in severe heart pain. It is old habits I need to break. I had essentially withdrawn. Didnt even have much of a desire to be used, because being used will get you hurt. Never fails. Someone is going to attack you. Abba has essentially allowed me back into the game. Hes used me and there is no greater high! As one of my dear friends said though, dont let it go to your head. As I drove 2 miles in 20 minutes today getting to Joe and Jennifer in a construction area, (talk about a testing!!) I was contemplating the past year, the coming year and other things in my life. I know, without doubt, more changes are coming and they will continue to be good, future changing changes. My Abba showed me everything that has happened...I just didnt see it happening quite like it did. I think he has shown me to be ready for anything, but ready for abundant blessings! I want to say this....many of us are looking for good things. Sometimes, we must go through things that dont seem so good for him to shape us, mold us, move us out of the way of things he is doing and to teach us how to think like he wants us to think. Dont decide where you are, what you are facing is it. Its not. Change is coming. YOU get to decide the change for YOU through your willingness to submit to HIM and your willingness to walk in obedience. NEVER think you can violate his Word and reap the blessings...NEVER think that, because you may see what seems good, but you didnt escape the consequences. Sometimes they are not immediate. Be faithful. Even when you want to lay down and quit. You wouldnt cheat on your spouse. Dont cheat on your Elohim. Remember he is VERY jealous!! Ecc 3:1 For every matter there is an appointed time, even a time for every pursuit under the heavens: Ecc 3:2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to uproot; Ecc 3:3 a time to slay, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; Ecc 3:4 a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; Ecc 3:5 a time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; Ecc 3:6 a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to throw away; Ecc 3:7 a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to be silent, and a time to speak; Ecc 3:8 a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for battle, and a time for peace. May we rejoice this Sukkot!
Posted on: Mon, 13 Oct 2014 02:02:10 +0000
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