Yesterday we lost to me a great actor and comedian. Robins brilliant improve and his compassion for others. It kind of hit very close to home for me. Most of you know my story. At one time I had it all. I was booked out every night, seven days a week. I really had it all. Little to no debt. Friends, family and so on. I was also drinking very heavily. Addicted to cocaine. Paranoid and DEPRESSED. I was believing every rumor being spread about Natalie Spears-Nickol and I and it tore us a part. On the outside I laughed and joked. On the inside I was a mess. 7 years ago it came down to fateful night and was set off by something so minor. Ill never forget it. We argued, I pushed my way Past her and grabbed my gun. Stuck it in my mouth and pulled the trigger. It never went off. Im not looking for compassion. I was a emotional mess, depressed and some could say a piece of Sh!t. It just goes to show that, you may look like it is all perfect outside. But, inside you are a hot mess. I deeply feel for Robin. I truly feel for his family. I hope he is at peace now. Robin, you were not alone. Now you know why I do as much charity work that I can. I can not stand to see someone struggle. I feel I was sparred to help others. Sorry, it all just hit a little close to home. Im clean now. A much better person. I have taken time to get help with my emotional well being. I took the hard road to get clean. I quit cold turkey and had people close to me promise to knock the shit out of me if they saw me messed up or attempting to get messed up. I just needed something more harsh then a spiritual program or 12 step. I need hard knocks. Anyone has a problem with depression, talk to me. Or any problem. I have a great ear that will not judge.
Posted on: Tue, 12 Aug 2014 19:21:22 +0000
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