You know I am sitting here while Jim is resting in his chair and Ethan is outside. And I started to think and I feel so alone and hurt scared so many decisions to make and not sure what to do or which way to turn ! But this much is for sure ! Cancer and a bad heart really sucks !!!!!!!!!!! You never know what to is next . When I fought the first round of cancer Jim was right by my side as well as my daughter in law changing bandages and my daughter coming in and out mommy do you need anything , what can I do Mommy and little Weston was always there Kimberly was to little but Brandon was always bringing me things and made his Mommy and Daddy bring him to Cabell to see his Granny after bless his heart he had himself had to go to Cincinnati to see the doctor! And little Kaylyn she was to little really to do much but after I had my heart attack in July she looks at me one day and said Granny please dont cry and be sad bc Brandon and me are here to take care of you always !!! Now all four of my sweet precious babies are bigger and are always wanting to help take care of Granny .... Brandon and Kaylyn always reminds me Granny its time for your meds Weston and Kimberly are starting to pick up on the other two doing for me and Poppy ... Those four babies & Jim are what makes me want to even think of fighting but when I dont get to see them everyday or two it breaks my heart ! Christopher was there the first round with the cancer . And now his girlfriend Andrea is here to and was with me as well as my Clara , my Sissy ( Amanda) but she. Couldnt stay and it was ok ! Then Matthew , Ethan & Jim was there . Bill couldnt come in and its ok . But this time there is more people to be with me all of the ones I mentioned and then Shelly & Bud & Gabrielle ,oh and my Mary I love you !!! You came when I needed you and then Kathy sweet Kathy love her heart she saw me in the room and came straight to me and had prayer with me . Fe my freind I met a couple of years ago you are so speaical to. Me you are many miles away but so close in my heart! And now so many of the people I went to school with are messaging me or calling me Angie Rose thank you I love you your a true friend to me ! And so many more! It truly means the world for you all to just talk to me and listen ! There are so many I cant name each one or we would be here two days ! This is a very hard time of the year for me on the 22nd of Nov. Is my late Mommys birthday and it will be 3 years on that day that Amanda Rose called me and told me my only brother was dead he had shot himself ! It was if my world was gone totally ! Just when I was getting to know him he left me :( Richard I love and miss you more than you will ever know ! But I feel lost and empty numb confused not knowing what to do or which way to turn ! The only thing I know for sure is I love my family and friends the ones that truly care bc my blood family other than my kids and Grandkids and one couisn Barb could care less and its been proven that my family is some of the Lyons family and ones that are not really related to me is my family now !!! I love you each one dearly please never forget this !
Posted on: Sun, 17 Nov 2013 00:25:14 +0000