You know coming out of a life of addiction & all the ugly stuff thats accumulated doesnt just instantly disappear! Ive been out a year and a half now & the old Andrea still fights to come back!!! She was hard & took pride in that & stubborn isnt the word! She would rather jump you & fight than try to work anything out & when she was scared she ran! Ive been dealing with these things for a couple of weeks now & Ive really come to a breaking point. Of course Im excited about Sean & mines upcoming wedding, but somethings just been eating at me & now I know what it is! Today is my breaking point, but not in the way the old Andrea would have liked it. Today I tell hell no!!!!!!! Shes not gonna win because I know Im not her anymore & instead of fighting everyone I love Im fighting her & the victory is already mine through Christ Jesus! The folks Im closest too have been there for me in the good, bad, & ugly times and God knows these last few weeks have been some of my ugliest.....clean that is!!! God is doing some mighty things in my life & today Im accepting the promises Hes spoken to me...they are coming to pass before my very eyes & at times its scary! I thank You God for opening my eyes & I pray that You continue to soften my heart...weve still got layers to peel back! I love you to my friends & family who are walking this journey right beside me & sometimes holding me up! I thank you for your prayers, texts, & calls from the ones that are really some of the only people who I will let in & speak into my life....along with God Himself you really dont realize how each one of you actually save me from myself!
Posted on: Thu, 24 Jul 2014 17:04:03 +0000
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