Youve always been there for me but mentally, it doesnt feel like u r anymore. Your dream seems to matter way more than I do! I barely know who u r anymore! I cry about u so many times in a week. And u know Ive cried but u no longer have the time to care! I know youre going through alot but I tried to help u prevent some of the stuff ur going through and u didnt listen! You thought i was the bad guy... And of course now Im suffering cus you made mistakes and ur taking them out on me!... The person who tried to warn u! Ugh! I feel like I have no body and honestly its felt this way for a few years where youre concerned cus I can barely remember the last time I felt like i could talk to you. I understand your stressed but why do u have to make me feel like Im one of the reasons your stressed; as if me being in youre life is stressful! I cant take it no more! Its hurt for years but now that I need u more than ever, its bothering me more than ever that ur too stressed or too busy for me. And I DO understand that your trying to build your dream, but Im preg and is like u to be involved with my pregnancy and with Trevor... And every since youve started building towards your dream its felt like even my pregnancy doesnt phase u! I really truly feel like Ive lost u forever, and u know what? U get mad when I express myself about it cus ur too busy to even NOTICE that YOU do make me feel this way. Im not gonna feel bad tho. Ive made dumb decisions but Ive been there for u thru thick and thin especially lately when I knew u needed me the most!
Posted on: Wed, 25 Jun 2014 05:47:02 +0000