____ I Want To________ © Justin Jardine __________________________________________________________________________ I want to write about how you make me feel , I want to write about How every time I see your face I know that my feelings are real but Sometimes, not all the time I want2 write about how i wonder how you do it. How you can sit back and watch yourself hurt me so bad and not feel any guilt. You say things to me, that ultimately pushes me behind destroys the foundation on which our relationship is built And I try 2run, but it always comes to find.. And remind me about how you Doubt me And yet you still expect me to look the same way. With those `eyes of yours searching for the answers inside me. You want to know everything,yet you cant confide in me You want to know how I feel And if its a way to break me down inside. You just have to ask. And I’ll tell you. Theres not really a big deal but then comes the aftermath where you find a way for us 2 squeal I’ll tell you that you were the first girl I ever loved. You were the one who took my heart and locked it inside of yours. You placed my fingers in between each of yours. And in the end, You took that heart and you shredded it to pieces. You could have just ripped it in half. Then it would be easier to put back together. But instead, You tore it. Piece by piece you shredded it. And no one can fix it. No one wants to. Because they look at what you made me. A guy with permanent tears painted on my face. I am now just an empty void. a hollow individual floating in space There is no desire to want to love again. Because now there is only the fear of ruining what I have tried so hard to build up. I can’t describe the feeling you always raise in me & I can’t describe this wash of happiness that you seem to bring for days in me…. But I want to write about it, I want to write about you I want to write about that days we shared because people dont have a clue.. but its not like you cared Every time time you would tease me and laugh at me it would linger in the air and you would like the feeling but with you i wouldnt even dare I can’t describe the loving look in your eyes When you know you wrong but you treat me unfair I can’t describe the reason why I won’t say, “Goodbye”. But I want to write about it, I want to write about you And about how much love I Have for you my pie. Through all the storms and struggles— All the fights and tussles’, All the disrespect, and abuse, My love was always true. Even when i faced Neglect I never had an excuse. When you made me cry, made me feel unloved, I was always there by your side, Even when your pride pushed me aside and Shoved.. No matter what you did or what you said, I was proud to be your man. Now you again have me confused, Can you please help me understand????… My love for you is greater than anything in this world, You know that no one can love you like I do. But that decision is for you to make, And for you 2decide Everything we have been through, It was always you with Whom i wanted to confide I want to write about all our memories, all our stories, and adventures How we conquered them together But I can’t describe the paths we took I can’t describe the sense of security I felt in that one look But I want to; I want to write about you I want to write about us How everything felt was true love not lust But I can’t describe anything without you I can’t describe all our hopes and dreams How everything that was so perfect left in a fleet of screams I want to write But I can’t explain how our plans got so disarrayed How god knows i love you and i dont want you to go away I can’t describe this sudden feeling I have to be by your side How even through the way you treat me I have to hide all that I feel inside I want to write, but I forget how to describe what is meant I want to write about you but I can’t I can’t describe the feeling of lost, the feeling of what it all cost Or of the silent screams, the lovely dreams with just you and me But I want to- I was your man , your boo; But all you ever did was treat me like garbage. You said, “Baby you know I love you.” But true love doesn’t break my heart. I tried and tried to look past it, But the more I tried, the more I saw the real you. All the lies, all the deceit, You must have thought you 1step ahead, when you losing my feet. To love you more than anything, Would be ignorant on my part. I can’t image my life without you, But I can’t image my life with you. I deserve more than what you give me, Better than what I have now. Growing up is something that you need to do. My love for you is always there…. #HurtingPoem
Posted on: Mon, 04 Nov 2013 07:52:44 +0000