anonymous post please my heart goes out to everyone on this page, ive finally plucked up the courage to tell my story even though only my husband my parents and in laws know. i got married in 2011 to the most amazing man. we didnt want to have kids for a while so i went on contraception for 2 years i finally took it out in January 2013 and i was told it might take a while before i get pregnant because my body needs to get back to normal, but regardless i got pregnant 3 a month later but i didnt know i went for a scan and surprisingly nothing showed all they said was i had IBS but there was something inside me that believed i was pregnant from the symptoms when i became 10 weeks pregnant a faint line showed on the pregnancy test and each time i did another test it got darker and darker we were over the moon, we were going to have our own little family we told my parents and my in laws they were all happy for us. i went to the doctors it was confirmed, but because of my irregular periods they wernt sure how far gone i was so they estimated i was 10 weeks going on 11 i went to the hospital for the usual stuff and got my little gift bag with the little baby towel and loads of other stuff, i was so exited they told me to come back for my first scan in a weeks time. after a week i went back and waited for my turn to go in but funnily i had this horrible feeling inside me i thought it was just the pregnancy doing this to me. as she looked at the screen i could see the nurses face go from smiling to confusion she said the baby is smaller then what it should be so maybe u might be a bit more earlier in the pregnancy or maybe... this is the point were i knew the feeling i had since the morning was ryt theres something wrong... her maybe was followed by it might be a silent miscarriage :( i was devastated and so was my husband and my family :( they did more checkup a week later and still no heartbeat and no movement at all i was supposedly 3 months at this stage they they dropped it to me that so i dont say they didnt give the baby a chance they waited for me to miscarry naturally which i didnt for a whole month and a half i carried my baby and my body would not miscarry naturally it was horrible i didnt want to wake up everyday i hated being awake it kept reminding me of it all. after 6 weeks they finally decided i have to have a D&C i was 18 weeks going on 19 and still my body would not let go. 24/06/2013 was the day of the surgery. my husband still cant get the picture of me after surgery out of his head. since then my cycles have gone crazy 36 day cycle :s. i will never forget what happened because i never felt so empty in my life then the day after my surgery it was horrible. we have been trying again but with messed up cycles it aint that easy :( we wont loose hope though, im only 22 i still have plenty of time :) loosing a child at any stage no matter how far into the pregnancy is hard and as i said my heart goes out to all of you just remember there all little angels watching over you
Posted on: Mon, 20 Jan 2014 12:06:53 +0000