april has now been gone since june 6th, seems like a day or two sometimes,other times like a lifetime. cannot imagine or believe that she is no longer here with us. she lived in california, for so many years that its like she is still there. i do fairly well most of the time with the help of jesus but there are still things that will get my attention and start water works.. we wont ever get over her but we will get thru it. we wont ever forget her but we will remember all the good times. there were never enough bad times to even warrent remembering. i can now walk thru the trailer house she called home her last 6 months of life, without breaking down. just an occasional tear. i can now look at the clothes she left behind, and have even picked out a few to wear myself. i can look at my goat herd and remember all the attention she gave them, i can look at her wonderful children and remember what a loving mother she was and how she always wanted to know, who would take care her babies should anything happen to her. all of these things and i do so well but for some reason, i can not go shopping without at least some shed tears in town and a break down when i get home. for the six months she was with me ,she drove me everywhere and i guess it just triggers that time with her when i go into town. it doesnt even help for someone else to drive me but as everything else i will work past this too. dont ever hesitate to talk about her around us, we love to hear about her. her dad spends a lot of time pulling weeds in the garden, not that he needs all that sun, but he needs that time for his memories of april. she was the product of our older years, she came along,a bundle of love, in the days we should have been having time to do other things but god blessed us with that sweet child, after life had kicked us in the heart a few times. we needed her more than she needed us. so many memories but i wouldnt have it any other way. we always had her back when she needed anything and she had ours, rest in peace sweet girl, with the help of jesus, we have it all covered down here.
Posted on: Fri, 19 Jul 2013 18:52:47 +0000
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