as many of you know ive been consumed by my painful custody battle and as many of you know i get really down and quite a bit depressed by that and living in a relatively new area to me im not overly established in my small business of powersports repair Ive managed to get myself in yet another pinch. Ive had new people come in to my life that actually have grimmer outlooks and ive had others locally who have less than i even have that have offered to financially help. I no way can I accept anything from anyone whos been living for months with no electricity themselves. I guess the point Im trying to make is sadly the only ones who offered help are those in worse shape than myself. And Thank you to all of you that have sent heartfelt prayers to me and my baby girl...Those prayers are certainly coveted. Im not writing this looking for sympathy or money. Im just sharing my latest observations and felt some may want an update on how ive allowed things to fall. I only say that because i know Im not alone and even though Im surrounded by a lot of tough combat hardened vets (most of which tough it thru depressing times)I, myself, havent learned how to shrug it off and press on. I guess I have a hard time convincing myself that theres much hope. I have a large rented home chok full of stuff and not enough to even keep my cell fone activated. All of these shortcomings compound on me and my inability to sell anything to help pay for basic utilities just plunges me deeper. Dont worry, Im not suicidal but i can say i certainly can relate because this hopeless despair sucks bad. My custody case hasnt changed but there is a hearing on it on the 16th but Im not overly optimistic mainly because anything else that can remotely go wrong (large or small)has..And now I find myself in the biggest fight of my life, that being for my innocent little girl.I had a child support/insurance court hearing this morning (that was continued)only to find my dear lady friend loading her stuff to move on as the outlook of both our sets of problems are just too much. I dont know yet if that means I failed her. I can only hope and pray not. My confidence in as it pertains to my little one is very scared. Ive never felt like such a failure in my 54 years.I keep hoping someone that owes me money or somebody wanting to buy something comes through my door soon. My power and internet is on disconnect in a day or so. I cant even bear to look at the bills again at the moment. Lord please please help us.
Posted on: Wed, 10 Dec 2014 01:56:47 +0000
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