continued from a previous post... Now I can see this pattern arising with my writing. Whenever I write a good page or two I get that high feeling again. I feel satisfaction, accomplishment. But then it wears off very soon after, and an hour later thoughts arise in my head, I have to write more, I have to finish the book, I am wasting time, no I can’t go to the beach and have fun unless I write a few pages first, I will never get anywhere in life if I don’t finish this book so I must write right now! Thoughts like these arise everyday. So what this tells me is…I am not a Zen master by any means! When one is aware of a certain troublesome type of thoughts arising (I know these thoughts are troublesome, even though they inspire me to work and create, they still make me stressed out) and yet they still come all the time it shows that they have some work to do, they need to meditate more. So I try to meditate whenever I have these thoughts. When I am deciding whether to go to the beach or to a movie or do something fun and my mind tries to tell me that I must write instead I try to be aware that these are just thoughts, and they are not truths. I try to realize that it is not the truth that I ‘must’ write. And this makes it easier to go to the beach. It makes it easier to have fun. My mind tries to tell me that I will be happy if I finish my book, publish it, and sell a million copies, but I know that if that happens my mind is just going to tell me that I will be happy if I sell two million copies, or write another book. I know thoughts are always going to arise telling me that I will be happy if I do something more, if I accomplish more. So I decide to skip trusting my thoughts that tell me I will be happy when I attain something, and I go to the beach or I watch a movie, and I am happy right away. If you enjoyed this post please please please tell a friend about Thoughtless the Blog. here is a link facebook/thoughtlesstoday
Posted on: Mon, 29 Jul 2013 19:42:55 +0000