depression and hopelessness because i cant socialize or get rid of fear selfishness until i get rid of demonic stronghold, and have Jesus close again, within my reach easier. and that really hurts,to not be able to talk to people. i can really use people support a t monment because of fasting, and it frusterated me when i was fasting and seeking God it seemed as if i could not find him but today i feel him closer so please pray intercede that this will be over. my dream is crushed i have so much wanted to do with my life i cant even talk to my favorite people and God doesnt satisfy my soul any more. AND i am in counseling but i cant see about medication for 2 appointments. Even thats hard, Sometimes Hes close and when hes not I am oppressed and unable to socialize and i look so dumb. I have a hard time telling the couselor personal things. I need this breakthrough. Exam time is over so i have a lot time to focus on God, and (the thing im at school for is not even what i should be going for) my whole life is mixed up. i cant even function there either. but i seem to get more prayer on the weekends like now i feel really good and God close. WIthout him close i dont even know what to say, when hes near i can say whats on my mind so much easier. I dont want to be far from him anymore cant have that, pleas pray he will give me this miracle freedom from this stronghold. i love Jesus i need him. AND. Maybe If i could just find someone like me who would understand they could help me, like to lay there hands on me, making things easier. Maybe just a relationship with one person would make this happen for me. I dont know or maybe I can get by without
Posted on: Wed, 24 Dec 2014 12:11:49 +0000