feelings make many people uncomfortable, scared, uneasy, angry, confused, worried and numb. the more we deny, supress and redirect our feelings in unhealthy ways the more our fear grows. we oftentimes tell ourselves and others to stop feeling altogether because we do not know how to those feelings with grace, love, lucidity, direction and courage. however, generated energy of emotion must come forth one way or another. supressed, abused or dismissed feelings come out roaring and splashing whether we like it or not... we are then faced with shame and regret as we seem to hurt and fail people dear to us. but we also feel relief, because at least it is finally out and not tormenting us with anxious static buzz. the story repeats itself year after year, decade after decade, relationships, friendships, letters, days all flying by marked by the same intense inner desire to love, heal and embrace all the colours within us and each other... one young woman I know ;) also struggled to honour her caring nature, vulnerability and tender loving heart in a world in need of as much healing as herself. one unremarkable beautiful day, she sought advice and guidance in her pain, eager to heal and learn, from a special kind of person... the kind who is fully aware of their imperfect beauty and beautiful imperfection. and he said to her: "feel. FEEL it, feel it all; agenda, judgment, rationalization and ideology free - feel, cry, let it all out, become empty, you owe it to yourself and the universe. you did nothing wrong, you just cared. then thank everything and everyone for all the things you are grateful for, everything you can be grateful for, on and on, until your heart is full of love again... when others are feeling and acting unloved, be humble but never accept anything less than what you truly deserve. life is lonely, hurt is common, humility is divine. give them affirmation. remind them of all that makes them amazing. through this, arrange the conversation so that through the affirmation, both sides see what the issue is a compensation for, and bandage with love." as tears cleansed her spirit, acceptance warmed her heart, gratitude flooded her being. she felt grateful for the knife and the balm, the cold and the warmth, the confusion and wisdom for they together brought about the healing of her being and direct experience of life, magnificence of it all. everything and everyone she has ever encountered have brought her up to this beautiful perfect moment of total love, acceptance, radiance and bliss... and she saw, that everything has always been EXACTLY as it should have been - perfect and real and beautiful. and she cried once again this time with relief and joy. her light heart illuminated her sleep and waking life the next day; her smile radiated peace of someone who has not turned away from her beating, loving, caring, feeling heart, but went with it through summer rains, winter chills, harsh winds to see the most glorious rainbow within her very being... someone who has faced something everyone, including herself kept rejecting only to realize that within it was concealed the treasure, the wisdom, the love, the power, the beauty she has longed for her entire life. gems within a dark and scary cave. thank you for your guidance and comforting light, dear friend!
Posted on: Fri, 20 Sep 2013 22:15:58 +0000
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