for those of you that wonder about me, my attitude etc....I hope this sheds some light on it. Not only for me but all the other vets of previous eras. I did the best I could. We all did. Everything Blew Up. Shit dropped from the sky. The roads exploded. Everything burnt into Flames. I shot People. I tried NOT to shoot People. Nobody and Nothing stood in our way. We controlled everything or we died. We kicked your door in, and escorted you into the night; naked, bumbling, stumbling, crying. We ripped your home apart. We tried to be nice, but we had to be safe. People were trying to kill us. Im still afraid. Im still in Danger. Its been a Long time since anything blew up, I still watch the roads. I try to be rational. I forget. I panic. I run and hide. I FIGHT. I am Aggressive and Unforgiving. I am Submissive and Worthless. Im Wrong. Always Wrong. I will remain Proud. Im proud of everything. Im proud of myself, and Im proud of my guys. I refuse to have any regrets. I made Hard Choices. I pulled the Trigger and knew what it meant. I meant to kill. I had no option. My hands got bloody. I hoped I would not die. Jesse Benjamin
Posted on: Tue, 21 Oct 2014 16:29:38 +0000