hiya hiya hiya. its been awhile since i popped in for a hello. as far as the surgery itself goes, im completely recovered now. ...but my voice still isnt in tip top shape. its progressing though, and its likely what i could have expected considering it went through 3 years of constant abuse. at the very least, i can speak for an hour or two before it starts to get irritated so its more than enough to give me hope. i can sleep laying down again! (though ive retained my new found ability to fall asleep in any position possible, quite handy!) i feel.. healthy. i guess its relative, anything is better than the way it was before but i feel myself slowly being integrated into ..people again. that may not make sense, but i hope it does. in my head i dreamt of a future where i was normal again but i hadnt even considered that there would be a long period of transition to that life, which is quite silly in retrospect, but for what its worth its giving me some new perspectives on things. (and myself.) ive lost a lot of time, and its been heavy on my mind. its easy to say live in the now and such but i cant help but think about those things. its crazy how a significant event can make a single day feel like an eternity and a lack thereof can make 3 years feel like a blink of an eye. ive watched friends grow into such beautiful people while i was static. a part of that statement comes from you all. i dont say much, but im always saving bits of memory with stuff i read on my feed. some of you have become parents, rekindled relationships with family, completed year long projects, gotten married, dealt with death, moved across countries, graduated. perhaps its a bit sad, but staying up-to-date with you on such things has been an important part of keeping that part of me alive and sustained, even if it was only a blip a radar for the longest time. anyhoo, ive rambled far too much. in other news, i had forgotten how to play a song and realized i had a video of me playing it. i stopped releasing these videos awhile back, but maybe ill start again. i hope i can make a more positive, uplifting post in the coming months! see you soon. youtu.be/x-T_3UmDq98
Posted on: Wed, 05 Mar 2014 03:44:15 +0000
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